Low valley in my Life

Finally, I back to this blog again.
To review the past post, same time lay my thought to God again.

Dear God,

Thank you for your faithfulness in my life. Thank you for never leave me nor forsake me when time I have drifted away from you. Thank you for always there for me.

Last year is traumatic year to me. Unexpected year ! Instead of looking at negative, Lord I just want to give thank and bring my Father to know Christ! This a greatest blessing! Those need to go thru hard call. But Lord I know all thing work out for Good.

Those period , is a tough period to me , knowing my dad fall sick ( minor stroke + cancer( stage 3) ,
my faith was shaken, My fear has arised, I am overwhelmed by uncertainty and fear.
It become stress and depression to me. This neg level has even cause me fall sick and unable function well.

when I am in low valley, Lord thank you for being there for me.
u bring comfort word thru church service, thru friends, thru my husband and thru book.

In this low valley, I am very conscious about myself, my health. whole day like zoom into the worry worry world ...that too tired for me to cope.

LORD YOU SAVE ME! You Send your people to pray for me, to enlightened me, to encourage me Go Back to your word.

YES! LORD! YOUR WORD IS MY MEDICINE. IS MY COMFORT!IS MY HOPE! IS MY CONFIDENT!

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.



In the low valley, Then I realised your mind and heart has so limited of your word. HOW IMPORTANT and desperate I NEED YOU WORD.


Thru this struggle, Your have me learned: important of
1.reading and memorize your word.
2. meditate your world.
3 Pray , petition and thanks Giving
4 Trust and believe.

Thru the book - mind batterfield..
I realised how important is our thinking. not letting foothold for SATAN to come in.

Sharing..

Time to rejournaling my journey.. It has been stopped for a long long time...I found by journaling down my journey, it encourage me cling on to God more, it help my heart always filled with gratitude toward God .. It always can Draw my heart back to God :)

I was created to share the goodness of God!! 

Today I was talking to my colleague (Rachel) , we are sharing about our church, our faith , our testimonies, our thought , our past, our conversion ..

Which was a fruitful conversation. That really strengthen our faith in Christ n his blessing in our life be our encouragement. We praise The Lord he bring us through valley, mountain n rough place.

Lord, I pray that we will never forget the goodness you have done in our life. Lord I pray that we will always learn to give thanks n praise you !! Help us not to take u n ur blessing for granted! But treasure it!!

Lord it has been long time I din share about You, my testimony and the conviction u place in my heart!!

Is such a joy when we can share each other testimony n experience with you . 

Give us boldness , courage to share to lost soul. Give us conviction to share that that ppl may see u n find u :)

under God's favor

Last Sunday, CN preached about 'Under God's favor' (Ruth 2:1-23)..
This gave me a new in sight and deeper understand about this Chapter...

1. God Works through our decision.
    Is like how Ruth make decision to trust the Lord ( of her  decision to stay with her Mil and in
    foreign land )
2. God grants us favour before people ( if we stand firm & bring out Christ character)
    Is like Ruth who had a lot of Godly character, who left home and believe Israelite God, and woman of  great faith ( believe of God provision)
3. God bring the right people into our lives
  Is like Boaz - a guardian redeemer to Ruth and Naomi , that able redeem and save them.

Throughout the sermon, One thing that strike/refresh me was :

1 in (10 power of 50) chance = statistical 0% Chance

To have life supported on earth is 1 in (10 power of 282) Chance

With the above statistical, u can see we can survive on earth is not by chance but is by God's Grace, God Mercy and His Provision!! IS GOD BLESSING!!

GOD is in control of Everything !!

In our life, we always look for the visible hand of miracle from God, Do  we realised in another hand , God, is also doing his Invisible hand of provident in our life?!!

Example of  Visible hand of miracle is like instant healing, overnight get rid of addiction,...
Example of invisible hand of provident is like medicine, doctor, regular rest, make regular decision to rely on GOD...

Daily take a step of faith to trust and surrender to God in small /big decision, this will help us make GOD honouring decision when time to make a SUPER BIG decision.

Daily take a step of faith rely on GOD and when time there are storm , we have a faith to know where we stand ..  & WHO will stand for us!

Isn't it great!!

Do not littling myself !!!

Before I forget , While it still fresh.. I want to drop it down ...keep it in my heart n blog to continue get encourage

Rebecca - the writer of 再见单人床 and one of the music director cum pastor 

Being guest of honor sharing their faith in church service.

Rebecca shared about her life transformation n ways of encountering with God ! 

What inspired me thru her sharing is :

-How she purposefully go to Korea spend time with God!

-How she stand firm for God and not influence by the world but claim back the ppl thru media - do what pleasing god 

(What Speak to me:)

Do not little urself , how GOD can use me like Ice cream women story - As I am littling myself as housewife .

Music director cum pastor shared- when the favour of God is with u , his presence will be with u..

Even God put him in the group of proud , his humbling spirit for God used have influence ppl...shine in group of dark :)

Stay AT Home MuM

I have been a 'stay at home mum-to-be' and 'stay at home mum' for 2 years plus , since I get pregnant.

During pregnancy period, being stay at home mum-to-be is super-ly relax and i really enjoy my own space own time doing my own interest without stress from work. I am totally free from the work.Yes!!! I thank God my husband can give me this 2 year + of support..( darling, xin ku ni le ^-^)

Even now, I thank God that I can stay at home, taking care of children , watching her growth every new day...that really a precious and blessing to me .

Some peoples has been asking me... Are you ok to stay home and 24 hour watching the little one and doing household chore. That time I may have a stuck to answer them. But now I would like to say

"You wont feel bored at home when you have vision, mission and resolution set for yourselves, spouse, children and family.

Everyday is a breakthrough and challenge. Everyday is about life balancing. Time is even more precious to u.."

My recent thoughts & feeling

Time really flies...Elise, my princess, my baby now already 16 months 2 weeks. ( 1 year -4 months- 2 weeks)

Here is the recent photo that we took at Jurong Bird Park.

Elise has grown up so much...Imagine that time she still a baby girl, crying for carry and milk, ..now she can walk and run, she can self feed herself the solid food ...wow...Also reminded me my age is catching up as well...

Raising Elise is my greater pleasure ^_^... I am so blessed seeing her growth, her new development milestone, her every action and reaction every new days...

Thank God for blessing me by putting Elise into my life....Thank God for blessing me this new experience, adventure in motherhood and parenthood journey...and make my life colourful...^^

Now as a mother , I can deeper identity my Abba Father love to me. ( Although i know his love is far more than a word, far more than i know, far more than i can fathom)...but now i can stand in different angle and perspective to see, to feel , to understand "why he do what he do"..and what is parent heartbeat for children.

The Love that dedicated ...( The unconditional, agape, sacrificial love )

I am truly enjoying to prepare her the every new nutrition food of the day, I am truly glad to hear what the teachers comment about Elise ( That mean the teachers is paying attention and care to her) that always encouraging and help me to have positive view...I am truly blessed to hear her calling me 'mimi'..i am so heartwarming when she is looking for me for comfort, hug and love..I am truly enlighten when i hear her new learning words every new day...

Now she is learning to imitate me..word, facial expression..so cute, so sweet...haha..

Recently, she like this song 'If you happy and you know it.."very much and always come with a dance.

Oh...My baby, my girl..mummy is so proud of you...Do you know...??!!! ^_^

I am also wondering, what can i do that i can proper guide, educate, lead, shepherd , impart in Elise life...( God i truly need wisdom and guidance from you)

Also With this

It remind me about my God, my Abba father, My Shepherd...Does God proud of me of what i am doing ? Everything in my life?...what else in the mistake that i made..? what is the fatherheart to me?

My God, My Abba father, i need comfort, love, peace, joy, encouragement and enlightment and wisdom from you..please help me...

God, you are my direction!

Today is 人日。 Is meant everybody birthday.

Think is Chinese New Year culture .. 7th day from the day start Chinese New Year is called 人日。

A special day we used to greeting each other thru sms, whatsapp, email or call .. some even celebrate or gathering ...

This day , I just want to give myself a short break from taking care bb, from household chores .. N have quiet moment with my God.

Later noon time will meet lg friends fellowship ..


Let my mind n my heart refocus back to my God..

I have missed many many time in keeping quiet in God ....

I know I have been walking far away from God this period of time ...

The moment I far away from God, my direction become unclear, I lost the peace in my heart , I lost the passion in me n the joy, faith n love is seem far far away...
I like go back to my old self...
What a scarily n insecure feeling!!!

Lord,

I don't like this feeling. I don't want to live the purposeless life...I don't want to drag my body doing thing without direction , passion n purpose ... Is really like chasing after the wind...

I born not for that .. For u said in bible

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord , “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you,” declares the Lord , “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord , “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.” (Jeremiah 29:11-14 NIV)

Lord I surrender my life to u again And ask
For u be my leader again to lead me in every part of my life ...

Life without ur presence is life that I can't imagine...