Yesterday, after sunday service and lunch, there had a short teaching given by Inn siew about outreach...
We were given 3-5 mins to share to about our converted - be a christian. Ha...person who sat beside me is Sandra.. my Barnabas. I loved her testimony very much..
Is a time to prepare testimony, Is a time to share... and make my Jesus well known.
Well, I got testimony, but is for 30 mins. To make it short to 3-5 mins..wah..really test me, man!!:P
Lord, I really need your wisdom and help to recall back
my christian walk with you...
" How Jesus evangelise me?"... ( long long time ago, there was a little gal.... :) )
I remembered before I became a christian, my mind was openned
to all kinds of religions. As long as the religions can bring me peace
and make me feel comfortable, then I will choose to believe. As I
grew older ( from primarly 6 to secondary), I remembered that time
I (still) considered myself as buddish. I believed the god(buddha)
in my house can protect and bring peace to me and my family.
That's why I honoured my god by punctually worship him with
joystick. However this can't substain my inner peace. I always
lived in worry and fear! I don't know why and what happen to me!
Where was this fear came from and why this feeling always came
and attacked me?! ..Living in this fear, I started to think about
life and death, about ghosts, about sickness..slowly slowly I found
myself had overwhelmed and I can't even hear/accept any
Fear had overwhelmed in my life... !!!
Due to my parents they were not always at home , this made me felt even more insecure and lonely. So in my family , I always pulled out my long face and in my family I was well known as coward.. ( coz little little things in my life will make me fear whole day or weeks or month) ** ( Thank god that time my family members, they accept who i am..hehe ..and never condemn me)**
I know christ through various media...
I got one tuition teacher, she always came to my house giving me tuition.
After finishing our lessons at night, she will start to share and chit chat with my auntie about her life, about christ, about bible, about her testimony, about her prayer.. Though that time i was young and i was a kid but also because of this reason..I absorbed all her informations into my mind without hesitation.
I believe, that time " love and marvelous" seed about Jesus had been planted into my heart"
There was also one time I saw how god answered my cousins prayer. My two cousins(non believer) testified how god answered their prayer. They prayed and asked for supper (chicken noodle) from God, whereby that time is a night time and their family never take chicken noodle as supper before(according their info). Just after praying, their father started to ask who want to eat chicken noodle and both of them started to shout out .. See, another seed planted...
One day, When I watched one video clip about jesus christ story. In the movie, His compassionate and love to his people , touched me very much.... I Cried ...the story was so real... His voice, his words is so dear to me and comfort me..I find inner peace.. I followed the last part of the movie, praying sinner prayer... I believe that moment god began doing something great in my life. Though I can't immediate see the change in my life... but the strength, the trust(faith), the love, the peace have been renewed..One day, I decided to tell my parents I will not worship buddha anymore. I won't present him any joystick every 6pm any more(last time, this is my way to honour buddha and asked for peace) . I don't know where the courage and faith came from. I just know i want to love him(jesus). Though my parent is a bit suprisedof what I say but they never persecuted me. ( may be they thought that I was still young, i don't know what i was doing, as long as I was not doing harmful thing, will do.. :).. )
However, to let my parent knew what was christian, I decided to be a real christian, to let them see the different within me. Let them saw my life was changed. I started to do the household, and learned to be gentle... (That time, I don't know where the desire came from, but is so strong in my heart and my mind ) Just something inside me, encourage me to do so... (That is holy spirit)
Beside god had transformed my life from fear to faith and courage. That time as I mentioned early on, i scared darkness, i scared to heard of any sickness name, I scared to hear someone died, i scared about ghost...So many things in this world that can easily caused me fear.. fear of nowhere... I really thank you lord, that whenever i was fear, he will bring me back to him .. he gave me peace.. I was not alone..I prayed and cried... to him. He is the one I can lean on.
At the other hands, I thank god for his blessing by opened my heart and granted me wisdom in my study. Before that, most of my exams are fail or just passed. I never thought of getting any distinction. However, unknowingly when, I start realised and found the technique of study, I enjoy in reading and studying. My interest started expand, even the desire to know/ learn more .. getting stronger.. I never thought that this would and could happened to me. Obviously, God changed my attitude and perception ..changed my desire nd changed my heart.. by god grace, my exam result improved... THANK GOD.
Though in my life, I m still facing up a lot of uncertainty, up and down , sometime will even face the same stronghold again.. but it no longer like the past. I will face it with his strength and grace. He will give me courage and I will face it with him. Bit by bit i can see my self growing, learning .. enjoying ...
I was blessed .. so wonderful dwelling in his love..
Human will never perfect but yet My father, my saviour never judge me as human judge. He precious me , forgive me and love me, mould me and guide me ...so that my soul will find satisfy and rest in him. Nomatter how strong is the storm and wind in my life today, i know there is one behind me and for me. There is one who so faithful and walk along with me along mylife path. I am not alone. There is one who i can draw strength from. There is one who I can thoroughly depend on. He is My Saviour,my redeemer, my forgiver, my friend ,my abba father.
Friend, Life is so uncertainty/ unpredictable. But life is a gift given by god. He want to bless us most and want us to enjoy it. Storm will never end! But how are we going to face the storm in our life today? When you come to him, he will give you peace, give you joy, give you new life and open a way for you... You will find him.. He know his child well.... He know what is good for his child. Don't reject his blessing. Just believe him! He just want you to know, regardless how strong the storm and wind is in your life, you are under his wings and under his protection. Don't rely on yourself but trust in him. We are human and we are weak, human will always fail you. But remember, God will never fail you. He will lead you to abundant life.. that you will never expect.
Have a excited journey with him..
John 6:51 "I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats of this bread, he will live forever. This bread is my flesh, which I will give for the life of the world."
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