Yesterday, after sunday service and all the meeting and shepherding..it was almost 4:30pm..
When I walked toward the mrt, I saw Mount zion bookshop. When I was first step into the bookshop, the song just flowed into my heart...It was a mandarin song. Though I don't know what's the song name . But the music somehow have quiet down my heart, my soul and my mind once again... I have spent almost half an hour there.. It was really a good place for me to buy gifts, cards, books, songs... and quiet down my heart..
Along my way home, there was a lot of struggle and burden ...
After the whole day sermon, meeting, shepherding... the evaluation started!
Holy spirit, my self conscious , myself started to evaluate,evaluate my days, evaluate my heart condition, evaluate my whole week what had I done...spiritual warfare come..
flesh fight with spirit again....
The sermon tought about "Holiness"..This is the only way we can see God.. Am I living a holy life? Where am i? Am I living a life that pleasing god or pleasing man...? what have I done in my life?...what are the sins I have commited and stored...? that hindering me from seeing/listening god...
The shepherding tought about balancing... Did every aspect of my life balance?... Along my life path did I misconcepted the meaning of "balance"? " What is the balance " " how to balance my life", Bible/god's word is a scale ... That are so many things that out of sudden strike me....the questions keep on repeated in my mind...
I decided spend more time alone... I want to listen..
I need to quiet down my self....
Beside the angriness, disappointment came across ..currently there have many things that i cant accept, i can't adapt to... and all along i have struggled in....It reminded me a word in the shepherding during discussion ...what is inflexibility and compromising...
I really pray that there was no bitterness grow...
I prayed that god teach me and help me to let go(surrender).. teach me relax in him.
Even, when I started read spiritual book " how to make a right decision"
The chapter named " legalism -will hinderance you listening from god" somehow strike me very much ..
Quite true, as the editor said," she don't believe we can enjoy life and live simultaneously under the law"
legalism is everyone must do the thing- the same way and the same time.
Somehow it link my thought to inflexibility.
Isn't legalism and inflexibility almost have the similar meaning?
The sentence - "Holy spirit know individual need...and will speak to individual differently.
but the rhema will not against his logos"... method (rhema) could be in many ways but the principle is there...
Jesus come to make captive free...
I am realised i have made many thing in my life legalistic...
If I continue live under the law, i couldnt enjoy and let my life led by holy spirit..
God is so creative, He will speak and led individual in his creative and unique way...isn't need?
Lord help me not to fall into the "legalism" concept like pharisee...
help me and always remind and teach me surrender, let holy ghost led me through ..
help me not fall into the bondage ... legalism
Teach me how to surrender...and help me in this area...
So I may free and led by holy spirit...
When I walked toward the mrt, I saw Mount zion bookshop. When I was first step into the bookshop, the song just flowed into my heart...It was a mandarin song. Though I don't know what's the song name . But the music somehow have quiet down my heart, my soul and my mind once again... I have spent almost half an hour there.. It was really a good place for me to buy gifts, cards, books, songs... and quiet down my heart..
Along my way home, there was a lot of struggle and burden ...
After the whole day sermon, meeting, shepherding... the evaluation started!
Holy spirit, my self conscious , myself started to evaluate,evaluate my days, evaluate my heart condition, evaluate my whole week what had I done...spiritual warfare come..
flesh fight with spirit again....
The sermon tought about "Holiness"..This is the only way we can see God.. Am I living a holy life? Where am i? Am I living a life that pleasing god or pleasing man...? what have I done in my life?...what are the sins I have commited and stored...? that hindering me from seeing/listening god...
The shepherding tought about balancing... Did every aspect of my life balance?... Along my life path did I misconcepted the meaning of "balance"? " What is the balance " " how to balance my life", Bible/god's word is a scale ... That are so many things that out of sudden strike me....the questions keep on repeated in my mind...
I decided spend more time alone... I want to listen..
I need to quiet down my self....
Beside the angriness, disappointment came across ..currently there have many things that i cant accept, i can't adapt to... and all along i have struggled in....It reminded me a word in the shepherding during discussion ...what is inflexibility and compromising...
I really pray that there was no bitterness grow...
I prayed that god teach me and help me to let go(surrender).. teach me relax in him.
Even, when I started read spiritual book " how to make a right decision"
The chapter named " legalism -will hinderance you listening from god" somehow strike me very much ..
Quite true, as the editor said," she don't believe we can enjoy life and live simultaneously under the law"
legalism is everyone must do the thing- the same way and the same time.
Somehow it link my thought to inflexibility.
Isn't legalism and inflexibility almost have the similar meaning?
The sentence - "Holy spirit know individual need...and will speak to individual differently.
but the rhema will not against his logos"... method (rhema) could be in many ways but the principle is there...
Jesus come to make captive free...
I am realised i have made many thing in my life legalistic...
If I continue live under the law, i couldnt enjoy and let my life led by holy spirit..
God is so creative, He will speak and led individual in his creative and unique way...isn't need?
Lord help me not to fall into the "legalism" concept like pharisee...
help me and always remind and teach me surrender, let holy ghost led me through ..
help me not fall into the bondage ... legalism
Teach me how to surrender...and help me in this area...
So I may free and led by holy spirit...
I believe it will be new lesson for me..
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