Finally - Special Case

Before i forgot, i better drop it down...

I really don't want to forget this blessing and i pray that god will deepen my love in him..and always remember him and his goodness...

Before the surgery, that few days i was struggling and started to put more concern and awareness to my health condition. .To make sure my body was in good condition to do operation..

I don't want to delay the operation...I wished everything will go on smoothly.
Thank god for giving me so many bros and sis to take care of me, pray for me, remind me and teach me.

Lord, you know that i can't face it alone, right?! You know me so well...

Lord, you know that my emotion will shake my faith once again..therefore you used shepherd/leader/meeting/sermon/songs to teach and remind me continue trust in you and depend on you...

Lord, thanks for your encouragement...

Lord, i thank you for your presence and protection. I m sorry for my lost focus in you and forget give thanks to you..

Finally the operation is over.

It was really a smooth operation. i believe it was your healing hand and protection upon me.
The moment i woke up. It was not as how I thought or felt( bad experience) . No flame on my throat. No difficult breathing..

Thank god and praise the lord..

So touched by my sis and bro+ leader who took leave and time off to take care of me. I knew time is precious. But they 're willing to sacrify their time though it could be small to them but to me is big sacrifice. In my heart, I really thank god for giving me such a brother and sister and family.

I thank god for everything.

I got one week hospitalized leave. Sorry lord. My attitude was wrong when i knew i only have short days of mc. I was angry and worry. I didnt put trust in you. On that time all my mind was thinking of how to get mc or extend. I know I should give thank to you instead of spending time blaming and worrying.

I know my attitude and motive was wrong. I should think of rest well and speedy recovery instead of worrying and blaming. My motive should be "get more rest" instead of " no need to work". This wrong motive make me struggle and fall into blame..

However, lord i give thanks that clear my mind and help me to understand and realise my wrong motive and attitude else i don't think i will have a peace and good rest during this mc period.

Lord, i thank you that at last you grant me another 9 days mc more than i expected. I know i have to precious these 9 days and make it more fruitful.

Lord, thank for giving me more days to rest and recover.

Thank God for your grace and love....

Father, continue keep me close to you...and free me from blaming and complaining attitude.

I pray all these in the name of Jesus. Amen..