Yesterday(18 jan), really enjoy dinner at Hotel Marima...
I like Shami, Sushi, tempura (mushroom)...etc.
We have Japanese buffet there..Wow...So many options for us to choose..try..and eat...Yummy~ Yummy~.
Ya..we were having birthday celebration there. Celebrate "IS", "GL"& "RN" birthday.. Three birthday gal..hor~
I think yesterday was our first time having reunion dinner with full attendance.
I really enjoy yesterday night with all their presence.. :-D..& all delicious foods around...thank god for everything. :)
Lord, thanks for giving all these people and all these memories ...
Morning - 19 Jan
Lord, I want to give thanks that you refresh me and father i want to rededicate my heart to you once again. Although I am not sure of what had happen to my heart last few week and currently, but father i have decided not to focus on my emotion and the condition any more i just want to look at you..and focus to you.
Some thought in my mind...
Am I perfectionist that i always want the way turn according as what I expected ( included my emotion and heart condition)? If my condition can't reach to certain condition that i expected , i will start to self question " what had happen to me? ", " Am i going to wrong way?"...etc ..so on...
It seem like i did not give myself a room/space to be in another condition but set myself have to always in right and standard condition... When i think of what i write above , i feel so scaring...What i have expected myself!! Think i should learn to love myself more and allow god love to break this High self expectation else this will lead me to self condemnation.. so dangerous yet always happen!! I am human, heart/emotion condition no matter how is still will up and down... i have to learn to accept good and bad season and same i have learned to accept who I am...with weakness and strength...
Father I pray that you help me not to fall into this high self expectation. Teach me to accept who I am and continue to have a soften and open heart for you to nurish me and build me up. Father, thanks for giving me this point of view and help me understand and be patience to "the transit in my heart condition" .
Father, I fully uphold my heart condition unto your hand.I want to surrender everything unto your hand. Father, u take full control of it and bless me father. Give me full strength and teach me count of your goodness n blessing. in all the way i ask for your presence, spring of living water. Thank for helping me realised this. commit and I pray all these in the name of jesus. Amen. :)
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