Feb - 2006 * New month

Ha.. have a long break in Malaysia during CNY.

Thank God for giving me this long break to accompany my family, visit my friend and relax my mind.. Indeed is a great holiday i ever have. :) Father thanks for your blessing and always so faithful to me.

Before i went back to malaysia, my emotion was quite up and down. Now i was realised I was running away from God, from the fact and the reality. I was fear to face future, i was tired with the uncertainly and i had lost my faith, hope and trust in him, my abba father. I can't sense his presence for i have allowed worldly things and my own thought overwhelm me. It was a scaring experience. I can't even put my focus in him, though i tried very hard... Is so scaring that experiece of losing him. Also now i realised i have to learn to treasure today what he has given me and remember of his grace. Thank god for his grace and always rememberance of me.

Blessing points;-

The Day before CNY eve (friday)

- My sister and i went to Annie ( my ex room mate)'s house at pinji petana, to change a new image ( Change hair style). Wow ~ from 2pm plus to 9 pm plus ( total 7 hours plus ) we spent time for our hair . I have highlight and perm my hair. My sister do the rebonding.. finally our image have changed! We look more mature. It was a good start. We satisfied with our new hair style though we have spent so many hours there...hehe..


CNY Eve (saturday)

We have a reunion dinner with our relatives. Only my dad and bros, they are not joining. one in Singapore , one with his friends and one helping Dad doing business (pasar malam). However, in my aunt house, it was really crowded and a lot of delicious food . That time i have spent most of the time taking photo and chit chating ( about current life) than Eating. After reunion dinner, it was a time to collect ang pow. :)

We have collected many ang pow~~:)
Following, we have karaoke session ... very fun...and we sang until 130am ...


CNY 1st Day (Sunday)

Early morning me any my 2nd aunt went to Church. Realised that my church (ipoh) have changed pastor. However pray that god will anoit this pastor and use him mightily. his really talent in praise and worship. He has a good vocal. His sermon end with the song. Ya..his sermon was talked about thankful.


CNY 2nd Day ( Monday)

We ( my dad, my sis and me) when to grandma house at Air tawar. Weather was so hot and dry. No doubt this trip will make me more tan, especially was noon time. However, thank god for this trip. when i met my grandma, realising she getting older and feel lonely. She really concern about my health. Though we don't have much talk at that moment, but her concern shown through his eye and action. Thank god for giving me grandma. Spending about half an hour then my sis and i moved forward to my ex- room mate mother house (annie mother's, which is one street away from grandma) again for "pai nian".

There was alot of changes in the village. i still remember, when i was young, i used to followed my mum to visit grandma house. I learned how to cycle there. I experience with my cousins , climb the tree, pluck the fruit, catch the worm from drain, run whole day around the village... i gain so many memories here...

When i left, it was my first time feel burden to depart with my auntie and grandma. ...

CNY3rd day ( Tuesday)

Supposingly this day was a day visit KL & kelly house at Air tawar. Due to hot weather, i give up. Last, i met them at Jaya Jusco shopping cente. I asked my sis and my best friend (CW) along. we just walk around there. Not much mood to shop. Only bought some neccesarry things . We shopped til evening. It was time when go for dinner.

Due to CNY and traffic jam here, there don't have taxi come in and a lot of taxi driver not willing come in and fetch people ( though we call to taxi station). No choice we have to walk further hopefully can get the taxi. But the further we walked, we slowly walk out of the city and come to another big road. We started worry for heard the news there was a lot of roped case happen here. because too tired, We stopped at one bus stand nearby and tried to make a call back home. Sudddenly, there was a white car stopped nearby ( quite near to our side). We really shock! Three of us are girls and people siting in the car was waiting. Arround all is government building and no body working. So what are waiting for?? Thank god suddenly there was one taxi passing by. He gave us a horn and and we quickly waived and got into the taxi. We are scolded by taxi driver. He told us that this place was very dangerous. A lot of indian or foreign worker will ride their motor at this area to find the target. There was many cases happen at this area. After listening to what the taxi driver said, I really thank god for his protection. Can you imgine, if no taxi passing by, what will happen to us? If the white car stopped near by is to aim us, what will happen to us? I thank god for his protection and we also learned a lessons. Thank god for this taxi driver and his scold. At least have alerted us. Now I realised the security have changed. Where ever I go, really have to be careful and alert. The world really changed!!!

CNY 4th day ( Wednesday)

I met with group of best friends. I have a great time gathering and chating.... ( at perade)

CNY 5thday ( Thursday)

Thinking using this time to renew my passport. When arrived there, goodness crowded!! by the time reaching there about 2:30pm, they had stopped giving queu no. They said Quota full. There were 600 more people pending for the process on that day. With no choice i have to turn back. if i apply on friday, then only can get the passport on the Monday. I have to go back singapore on Sunday night, so have to come back and do the passport .

Last, decided you this time to do the check up. Before came back, i have suffered with gastric about 2 months. To keep me from worried, one of my planning is go back malaysia do the check up. Never expected have to hospitalise.

Well, look at the positive side, it consider good. I can have a rest. A good rest. The room upgrade to 2 bedded room with 4 bedded room charges. Nobody in the room. Only me. I think is time to quiet down myself and
spend time with god. Also thank god giving me this opportunity to do the thorough check up. I know the most tired was my father. Go here and there without rest. I really felt guilty.

CNY 6th day (Friday)

I was waken up by the nurse. They took the pressure and temperature of me and given me medicine. After a while, do blood check up, ultra sound, scop all taken in following time. After the whole things completed, it was about 4 pm. Thinking still have time, I can arrange discharged. but to my disappointment, my doctor was not in the hospital. when he came, the discharged time is over. I have to wait till another day!! Means i have to stay one more night !! however, I thank god for the result. Everything is fine. though there were injured in my stomach. but the doctor said is fine and given me medicine to recover.

But I have missed out a lot of gathering and fellowship with my family and friends.

CNY 7th ( saturday)

I waited half day only can discahrged. After all the things, we went to giant and lightning shop to purchase lightning for my new house. Wow, there were many type and the light really made me headache. However, the design was very beautiful. Thank god i able to choose one with quite reasonable price.

me also have " Lau xi" with my bros and sis and My dad " lau xi " with his group of friends... how i wish we whole family can spend more time together...

It was time to pack my things ... tomorrow have to go back S'pore.

CNY 8th (sunday)

Time to go to church. I thank god for this day.
Especially the sermon. remind me to " remember of god grace, treasure his grace and response/ return his grace...and his grace will always with us."

"We have to live for today and Don't worry about tomorrow. Our live have a lot of up and down, but remember his grace is sufficient to you. Live for today, treasure today! "

His speak out my feel. is like god give me injection of faith once again to face the world.

After services, i have a great talk with one of my bro in christ. he is serving in one of methodist church at KL. While he share with me his commitment, i can see all his day is live for god. then i question didnt he feel tired of the commitment? He said yes. But strike me most is, he clear with his objective of serving, he know his focus and motive. Yes, what is my objective, where is my focus and what is my motive in serving god. Why should i fear to commit myself to God? I told him" i feel like want to run away" . Another word strike me, Run for what, is your blessing can serve him. not anyone have this chance. where he want you to go, just go...ya. Right! i have blinded my obj, focus and motive with my hand. My own fear and feeling.

Is time to face it. is time to take courage and stand up again.

I want to be overcomer. I want to exprience his grace more. to acknowledge and experience of his grace i have to carry faith, courage, trust and hope along..

lord, thanks to be my shepheard...

Thanks for this CNY, Holiday....

Father, Thanks for everything. I pray all these in the name of jesus. Amen. ^-^