Challenging week

I should say this whole week was a challenging week for me.
Packed with tight schedule and heavy tasks...

Especially today, i had faced so many interruption in my schedule. I was so disappointed!!!

Supposingly, I have planned to renew my passport and i have asked for 2 hours off from my boss, whereas the moment i reached the Malaysia high commission, they had told me that the operation dept and building have shifted to another place. Besides, their addition info for me was i should go and queue up for number in the early morning of 4am. Man!! 4am le!! I quite shock and disappointed to this news. How am i going to take another 2 hours off from my boss?!!! will they believe me i didn't cheat them for the hours off.. ? Following day, i still need to arrange apply leave for renew passport.. and i still need to wake up early and get the queu no...OH..tired!!..

My heart really felt down.. plus yesterday I had lost my pouch. My favour pouch though is cheap and normal to others...but is the dearest gift from my sis (Tri), also inside contained atm card, $$ ..

However, i should thank God that my important documents, Ic and other cards were not putting together else...i really will cry out..!!!~~~~

I thank god for putting my dear to accompany and encourage me. I also thank god for release the burden from my heart by rememberance of God's grace.

Why should i fear of telling the truth?!! why should i fear of my boss, his reaction? i am not living for them but for God!! and why i allow myself to carry on this unneccessary worries? ...this is not what god want me to live.. and everything in our life there is not in our control..why should i take it so hard?!! can't i trust God? can't i believe that he will make a way for me...??

God remind me once again of "Surrender". It was my yesterday lesson to my shep. Instead this was a good lesson for me now that i will learn to put my trust and surrender to him once again.

Though in the office, the interruption still continuous ..eg..pc hang, window corrupted, lost data.. i thank god for his grace that he gave me perserverence, calm to go through the daily tasks. HE also grant me a helper to lighten my work load.

Father, today what ever happen i really want to acknowledge you and praise you. Lord help me and teach me to surrender all my things unto you. May you restore the joy of salvation and peace within me.

Father forgive me of my little faith and the unrighteneous in your eyes.

Father help me not to look into the circumstances but the purpose behind. In the process of testing and trial, i will learn to look upon you and lord may you presence and power fully reveal.

Lord , i want to continue uphold my days unto your hand. Teach me to count the number of days in the earth that i may use my days wisely & abundantly to glorify your name and blessed your kingdom. Lord i thank you for your grace, love and mercy upon me.

Last, father i pray that my relationship with you will continue grow deeper, stronger and lover..

father, i miss you .... and i love you...

In the name of Jesus i pray. Amen.