My best friend forever-JESUS CHRIST

Can't wait to drop down tonight unit meet, how GOD touched me....

Though it is quite late now....but i really admit human esp me very forgetful..i rather spend some time to drop down the encouragement from GOD..it was a blessing from God..^.^

Tonight theme talked about "Friendship"...

During praise and worship, i thank God for his continuous assuring me that He is my friend...BEST FRIEND FOREVER... that no one can replace. He is past, present and forever...never change.

During worship, i started to cried badly... i know the reason WHY..
It is because my relationship with God not as close like last time...i miss his presence, i miss his encouragement..i know is myself .. i allow my hinderance to blind fold my eyes...

But i thank God for that moment i can confess to him and cried to him...
He assured me who he is and he will never forsake me...
He is my ever best friend that no one can replace. :)
He is always there for me to run back to him and rest in him...he is 24/7 available..
To share my joys, wipe my tears, walk with me, carry my burdens...

Thank you lord for being my Best Friend..

~~Emotional Period~~~

Almost a week plus ..my heart still a bit down... down time is really scaring..
Many of time I felt like want to cry... cry bitterly before him...
Felt lost, felt void, ....

I can said and admit that ..now, i am quite emotional..
'But i don't want to let emotion to control me.."!!!!! ... struggle..:(
now is fighting between flesh and spirit...

I know i have taken many things and hold it so strong on my own hands...i was tired..
But a lot of time, i know i need to let go..and only surrender, peace will come..

I know God is waiting .... He want to bless me...he want to give me peace that only from him...that can fill my void and give me HOPE and many others blessing. I know i have ignored him many times and tried to run on my own way, I know my believe/ trust is so surface...

The burdeness, tiredness, stress, worries, fear, negative thoughts, lost, frustration..& others emotionals will slowly come in and take place, if i am still hold my life strongly on my own hands...

Lord, soften my heart please! Help me to let go and trust in you...
without your presence is really scarly... the void...fear..uncertainly..

Lord, help me to see things in another dimension. Dimension that is from your view not from human view.. that my own perceptions & belief will breakdown and replace with new fresh perceptions that is from you...

lord, my hope is in you...and you are my refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble (ps 46:1).. i will look upon you again and you will restore me and i will be new creation again in you.

Lord, heal me, touch me, and help me find rest in you...

Lord, also help me focus my walk with you...help me to have greater desire and determine to listen and read your words. For your words is my strength... Lord, teach me to be more discipline..and enjoy in your presence daily..

Thank you father lord in heaven...my Abba father ..i miss you...
In the name of jesus i pray. Amen.

GOD GRACE

God's Grace....

Sister(GM) ,thanks for your sharing.
It was another dimension help me to see and experience God's grace...

After listening the sharing from Gm, something prompt within my heart. I know is HOLY SPIRIT. HS help me to retrieve , recall one of the sermon during my visit at my hometown ( Malaysia). Preached by one of the new pastor.

The title is : GRACE

~ Sources of Grace - ONLY from GOD"
~ Treasure GOD Grace by Living everyday in his grace
~ Remember GOD Grace by count his blessing and praise him
~ Give thank to GOD for his grace is always sufficient for us

This reminded me... human need GOD grace daily...every moment.. every single min.." Same to ME too.." but a lot of time.. when i looked back to my life, I was always lived in blaming/ complaining , self pity , bitterness world (own world)... and a lot of time i have forgotten, if is not because of God grace.. Where will i be? i dare not imgaine how would my life become..

Lord ..really pray that you lift up my spirit again...Help me to treasure your grace daily and live happily with your blessing surround me... also i pray that grant me a gratitude and humble heart ~ that always give thanks and honour you.

Lord, thanks for never forsake me...
Thanks for your faithfullness...

Thank you Jesus. in the name of jesus, i uphold my worries unto your hands and I claimed the faith, peace and trust from you. Amen .

Lord, My dream is in you...

At last , i have left my job...i am jobless now...

Suddenly, so many questions have come into my mind...

" What is next?", "Look out for the job?", " Give myself a break?" or " Back to Malaysia?"If i want to look out for job, "what are the jobs i am looking/searching for?""Where should i go ahead?", "what is my direction?"

Doesn't mean i didn't think through when i tendered my resignation.

But this time round when i went through the above questions again, it's still carried the elements of uncertainly.

How i wish i can see my life outside the box, that is far and with clear and bigger picture.How i wish i can see my life through God's eye sight... find out my purpose again..Just like how God look at us from heaven, he know our future, he know his planning for us.

Lord sometime i found myself very foolish, always take the uncertainly/worries on my own hands and thinking i can solve it by my own..

Lord how foolish i am that i am not trusting you but trust on my own ability and understanding and also the world/ trend thinking...

Lord how foolish i am that put my expectation on people and myself ..But I have forgetten " HUMAN ( including myself) ALWAYS WILL FAILED HUMAN(ME) " but " GOD, YOU WILL NEVER FAILED ME"

How foolish I am ..that not put my everything on your hands...and just " SIMPLY TRUST YOU"

How foolish I am not choosing God( Rock) but human (Glass)..

Lord i repent of my trust in you is so surface and always forgotten about you.So many time i have forgotten about you. Forgetten about how you bless me, love me and treasure me.Father, lord , renew me once again...

All i want is to praise you again and again until the day we meet face to face...

Lord i want to continue rememberance the goodness of you and let my heart always sweet and joy..

Lord is you giving me this dream and desire.

Lord is you open the way for me to step out the first step in my dream.

Lord is you assure me with your blessing

Lord is you carry me through every single path of my life.

Lord is you always there to comfort me and encourage me.

Lord is you always there wipe away all my tears and bring me unspeakable joy

Lord is you always restore my new hope in you.

Lord is you always teach me how to walk, see, listen and experience the life.

Lord my dream is in you...and is only in you ..it will be completed...

Lord, help me and guide me to continue move on to the dream you have installed for me..

.Not let anything holding me, lord let you be the driver in my life...only your presence i long for... I will look upon you..father.. :)