Denying Myself = Discipleship Myself

Yesterday , I thank God for using pastor ben to inspire me something through class.Daily we have to discipleship ourselves.

Discipleship ourselves? Discipleship myself? In my mind i always thought discipleship is to others or other to me ... but never thought discipleship to myself..

But is really true and a very good lesson for me to learn.
Daily are we carrying our cross follow Jesus?
Daily are we denying ourselve (denying our self-center nature, desire, right..) ?
Daily are we lesser ourselves and have more Jesus in our life?

When think it deeper, i know in many area i still relying on my own strength, my own understand and principle to see and believe the value of life, to see circumstances in life.. to react to circumstance...end up, i overwhelmed by cicumstances and own nature desires again.


Did i carry my cross and follow him? In bibble matthew 16:24-26 Jesus had clearly said, " If anyone come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever lose his life for me will find it.What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world yet forfeit his soul? or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?"

so many time we based on our own feeling, circumstance, principle, life value and experience to see , to trust and to do the things. Are we really trust God and allow God to do miracle daily in our life? Are we obey and allow God and Word of God be the principleand guide line in our life ..to make every single decision, to face daily circumstance and to bless us? and....Did i ?

I believe there are much more things in life that i need to deny... and obey
Of course God understand and know clearly I am human and i am weak. But thru the hard time and good time, i know there is someone that i can run to that will never fail me and leave me alone. and i can uphold all my good and bad feeling and circumstance to him. For he is my creator and everything is in his control and surely he will make a way and deliver me. He is my lord , my saviour and my friends.

My Friend, Jesus, will never reject and fail to wipe my tear, carry by burden, give me peace and joy.Lord, i thank you for many time be so many character in my life and so real be there for me.

Lord, this journey without you ...how am i face this world. and lord, i will ask for greater faith and strengthn in every aspect of my life. lord keep my faith strong in all areas.

Hebrew 11:1 now faith is being sure id what we hope for and certain what we do not see.

Thank you lord for this verse and lord i expect unexpected from you that you will prosper me not harm for you love me. :)

Prayer before work

I have started this new job already two and a half months. Time run very fast...

How should i describe my current job scope?
Daily produce the documents and do some follow up..to the procedure flow..??that is? .. hehe... believe there still have room for me to dicover and learn something...when time to come..

I should thank God for this job. Compared my current job with my previous job, there is 180 degree different , esp in term of stress level and responsibilities...also the size of organisation.

Well, i believe i can get into this company is not by luck and coincedence. Everything have in my life is God plan and had his purpose behind. I believe! Nothing HE is allow happen without his permission. This is the belief behind that support me to stay on in new job..i believe everything is his blessing and is in HIS good hand :)

Many time when i walk toward to my office, i really pray and ask GOD to be my strength and guide me thru and bless me and help me..Pray that His is my HOPE and my source of the day..So much I need HIS presence and carry his love and joy with me..

Below is the prayer really encourage me a lot .. to pray before step in to office.. :)

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My Heaven Father,

As I enter this this place, I bring your presence with me.
I speak your peace, your grace, your mercy & your prefect order in this office.

I acknowledge your power over all that will be spoken, thought, decided and done within these walls.


Lord, I thank you for the gifts you have blessed me with.
I commit to using them responsibly in your honour.
Give me fresh supply of stregth to do my job.

Annoit my projects, ideas & energy, so that even my smallest accomplishment may bring you glory.

Lord , when I am confused, guide me.
When I am weary, energized me.
When I am burned out, infuse me with the light of the HOLY SPIRIT.

May the work I do and the way I do it bring faith joy and a smile to all that I come in contact with today. And Lord, when i laeave this place, give me traveling mercy, Bless my family & home to be in order as i left it.

Lord, I thank you for everything you've done.

Everything you're doing & everything you're going to do, in the name of jesus i pray, with much love and thanksgiving. Amen.

#Never think that God's delay are God's denials. Hold on ; Hold Fast; Hold out. PATIENCE is GENUIS#