Lately, I was stressed by my work. Everything is seem so uncertain to me.
I was overloaded by work, surrounding by the pressure and demand from my superior and facing UN-reconcile relationship among colleague. All these had overwhelmed me day after day! And this pressure unknowingly had affected my other aspect of life especially my physical health, emotion health and spiritual health. My life is like roller coaster, up and down.
I was depressed! I was fearful! I was discouraged! I was uncertainly! I was weak! I was frustrated with situation where I am! My mind is full with complaining and confuse, my heart filled with bitterness…my attitude even worst!
Besides facing the work issue, my spiritual, physical and emotion grew dry as well. I don’t know how to deal with the situation and issue. The fears in me unknowingly weaken my faith. I start fearful of things that uncertainly in life. The more I focus on uncertainly, the more I fearful. My mind is full with negative thoughts that drive me nowhere.
With the struggle and helpless, I thank GOD for never give me up. I Thank God for his love, grace and mercy. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not in want. He makes me lie down in green pasture, he lead me beside quiet water. He delivered me.
One day, In the CG, God use this song to minister me. “Come to the father, though your gift is small. Broken heart, broken mind, he will take them all…” This is the call that God want me to respond…He want me to surrender…He want me to trust him… He makes me realize with my own strength I can do nothing. God also remind me who he is. He cares for me. He knows my situation. He loves me. With this encouragement and guidance, I find strength and hope.
Beside the ministering part, God send me shepherd as a helper and supporter in this battle. We spend time sharing, listening, praying and worshipping GOD.
I find release of my emotion in praying and worshipping GOD. The tears draw me near to GOD. With the confession of broken heart and mind, I surrender. I submit.
In the bible, Philippians 4: 4-7, prayer once again strengthen my faith in GOD. I learned to convert all my worries and fear into prayer and present to Lord. I learn to reject negative thoughts and cursing mind through prayer. With prayer and thanks giving, I find peace.
In the bible, Matthew 6:34, God remind me, He is sovereign GOD. Everything is in his control. His grace will be there for me and is sufficient for me. He is omnipotent, he is every where, and His verse leads me how to deal with issue every day. I learn to live in His grace and love.
And with verse 2 chronicle 20:12 and 2 chronicle 20:15 my shepherd sharing with me, I learn that, the whole battle is belong to GOD. This is GOD battle. I have to Trust GOD.
Day by day I learn to surrender; day by day I find strength in GOD. GOD reveals himself to me as LORD of LORD and King of King. With his presence, I find confidence and trust in the lord. With his presence, my hearts soften, with his presence I find assurance. I have a great GOD that I can depend on; I have a lovely GOD that never fails to love me. I have a faithful GOD that always standby for me. I have Lord be my shepherd that always know my need and ever present help. (Ps 23)
I know GOD is with me in my workplace, home and every where I go. He will never leave me nor forsake me. With his presence, I learn to manage and do the best I can, whatever beyond my control, I leave it to GOD. I thank GOD for Who HE is in my life that I have a new experience with him.
Praise the LORD!
