Resign

Two day ago ( 04/01/2010) , i have tendered letter of resignation.....

Before this decision was made...my heart was troubled.

I have served in my current organization for four year...or plus....

I know this job is blessed by GOD...

In this organization I have learned a lot ....may it be in work vise, relation, character,...

I know GOD put me into this place for a reason...reason to learn, reason to build up, reason to discover myself ...

In this four years i taste...goodness of GOD...he blessed me in my work. He give me wisdom in work and relate with people..

until last year 14/12 ..when my superior meet individual of us for appraisal...

then i know this time to move...

without much preparation of this sudden thought...i felt lost, i felt helpless...and insecure...

How is my future? where should i go...where is my directon? What is GOD wil to mel? Had God's will done in this place with these four year stay...have i run the complete race with this purpose...

i was trouble for i know i have not done well...

i was confuse of the thought in my mind and what my superior share with me....her strategy and planning...

i thank God thru sunday service, remind me that His presence is there for me...he will with me wherever i go...

Praise to the Lord!

Another New year 2010.....times really flies....



Lord, i give thank for reveal yourselves so real in my life...Lord, you are the true living God...

When i look back the past year till now..lord, i see your hand and your plan upon me, though those time i was stuck.



Lord,i was amazed by your love and plan....i truly acknowledge your way is higher than my way and your thought is higher than my thought.. Sorry lord, many of time i fail to acknowledge and obey your plan...but lord, you are faithful. your word and your will will not come back in vain...unless all fulfill...



Lord, when i am lost the direction in my career, i resigned and i was so insecure of the decision i have made....though in front of people, i act like nothing and exist like i am very clear what i am doing, but you read my mind and know the deeper of my heart ..what i struggling , ...the uncertainly and fear of the future...



Lord, when i am lost in my walk with you, you never fail to reveal yourselves to me and telling me how much you love me and how much you care for me....through the timing, circumstance, people, your word....



Lord, thank you for your love, grace and mercy....



Self- righteousness

Lord, You remind me of the self righteousness within me...you help me realised I was saved is not because of what I have done for you and the church( not by my good work) but I was saved becoz of your great love, grace and mercy...so that no one can boast on themselves but Lord you alone.



In the past, I was blindfold by my own self righteousness. My exist is to provide help , advice and guidance to people...always thinking what I am thinking and doing is right and expect people to listen. Always there are many thousand of my own truth to support and back up what I am thinking and doing. People listen..and follow the advice make myself felt fulfillment. Nevertheress this lead me to pride. This lead me to self focus and self center. This lead me to lose love and grace to people and this lead me always live in my and others expectation . This made me forget my identity in christ...Eventually I fall in my walk with christ and have conflicted with bro and sister in christ...



This was a scary but valuable experience i learned.Tthank God for this hard but true love...that i can wake up from this scary me...





Seek first your kingdom and righteousness, and all these thing will be given to you



In the past, when I am jobless, unclear of my direction in aspect of family, ministry, career ...you speak to me this word..."seek first your kingdom and righteouness"....

Yes. This word shall become the only direction for my everything and in every aspect of my life....for past, presence and future.

This word give me strength and hope. My direction will come and past..but never satisfy...my direction will be changed when time to come...but Lord your direction to me will last forever...
and your direction give me trust ,hope and strength...


You teach me to focus on you and trust on you alone...
..."seek first your kingdom and righteouness"....




Lord, you teach me trust you more than my knowledge and more than i can see...You teach me what is important in life....

Praise you lord. Especially end of last year and beginning of this year,...Lord thanks for answer my prayer in amazed way ...so that all glories to you alone.



Lord, thank for blessing us a new member in the family.

Lord, thank for delivering us blessing at your right timing.

Lord, I was amazed by your perfect timing. not too early and not late at all...

Lord, thank for tuning my heart, soul and spirit back to you before you bless me this wonderful gift. Lord, thank for your forgiveness, thanks for your grace and love. i can see it so tangibly so real...



Lord, You deliver us this blessing when after I was out from the stressful environment( for you know i can't cope with it), after the wonderful trip( you give me a good break) , and after you teach me the lesson and show me directon.( so that my spirit, soul and mind come back to u)...i find joy, peace and love...



Lord... thanks for everything. Thanks for being my Abba father, my Shepherd, My Creator, My King , My teacher, MY friend, MYSavior and my Healer and redeemer...