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2011-05-06T08:23:00.000+03:00

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Praise to the Lord!

2010-03-01T08:20:00.007+02:00

Another New year 2010.....times really flies....

Lord, i give thank for reveal yourselves so real in my life...Lord, you are the true living God...

When i look back the past year till now..lord, i see your hand and your plan upon me, though those time i was stuck.

Lord,i was amazed by your love and plan....i truly acknowledge your way is higher than my way and your thought is higher than my thought.. Sorry lord, many of time i fail to acknowledge and obey your plan...but lord, you are faithful. your word and your will will not come back in vain...unless all fulfill...

Lord, when i am lost the direction in my career, i resigned and i was so insecure of the decision i have made....though in front of people, i act like nothing and exist like i am very clear what i am doing, but you read my mind and know the deeper of my heart ..what i struggling , ...the uncertainly and fear of the future...

Lord, when i am lost in my walk with you, you never fail to reveal yourselves to me and telling me how much you love me and how much you care for me....through the timing, circumstance, people, your word....

Lord, thank you for your love, grace and mercy....

Self- righteousness

Lord, You remind me of the self righteousness within me...you help me realised I was saved is not because of what I have done for you and the church( not by my good work) but I was saved becoz of your great love, grace and mercy...so that no one can boast on themselves but Lord you alone.

In the past, I was blindfold by my own self righteousness. My exist is to provide help , advice and guidance to people...always thinking what I am thinking and doing is right and expect people to listen. Always there are many thousand of my own truth to support and back up what I am thinking and doing. People listen..and follow the advice make myself felt fulfillment. Nevertheress this lead me to pride. This lead me to self focus and self center. This lead me to lose love and grace to people and this lead me always live in my and others expectation . This made me forget my identity in christ...Eventually I fall in my walk with christ and have conflicted with bro and sister in christ...

This was a scary but valuable experience i learned.Tthank God for this hard but true love...that i can wake up from this scary me...

Seek first your kingdom and righteousness, and all these thing will be given to you

In the past, when I am jobless, unclear of my direction in aspect of family, ministry, career ...you speak to me this word..."seek first your kingdom and righteouness"....

Yes. This word shall become the only direction for my everything and in every aspect of my life....for past, presence and future.

This word give me strength and hope. My direction will come and past..but never satisfy...my direction will be changed when time to come...but Lord your direction to me will last forever...
and your direction give me trust ,hope and strength...

You teach me to focus on you and trust on you alone...
..."seek first your kingdom and righteouness"....

Lord, you teach me trust you more than my knowledge and more than i can see...You teach me what is important in life....

Praise you lord. Especially end of last year and beginning of this year,...Lord thanks for answer my prayer in amazed way ...so that all glories to you alone.

Lord, thank for blessing us a new member in the family.

Lord, thank for delivering us blessing at your right timing.

Lord, I was amazed by your perfect timing. not too early and not late at all...

Lord, thank for tuning my heart, soul and spirit back to you before you bless me this wonderful gift. Lord, thank for your forgiveness, thanks for your grace and love. i can see it so tangibly so real...

Lord, You deliver us this blessing when after I was out from the stressful environment( for you know i can't cope with it), after the wonderful trip( you give me a good break) , and after you teach me the lesson and show me directon.( so that my spirit, soul and mind come back to u)...i find joy, peace and love...

Lord... thanks for everything. Thanks for being my Abba father, my Shepherd, My Creator, My King , My teacher, MY friend, MYSavior and my Healer and redeemer...

主，我需要信心和勇气。。。

2009-07-15T11:26:00.005+03:00

有时用华语来表达个人的心思意念是最媲美的。。。

总是觉得透过我的母语，它让我表达出最深处，最隐秘，最难捉摸的内心与渴望。。。

时间过得太快了，身边的人物已全非。。。使我难以接受这社会迅速的转变。。

一直回味过去。。希望自己存在过去式的想法，幻想。。希望一切都没有改变。。。

我似乎没有勇气去面对将来。。很害怕改变，很害怕接受每一天的新挑战。。。

我怕失去。。

我的勇气，信心啊。。。你们在哪里。。。?

主，祢在哪里。。。

祢看到我的迷惘，害怕，无奈和心中的挣扎吗?。。

主，请祢安抚我。。求祢亲自带领我，甚至背我走过这幽谷。。。

我实在的太累了。。。

寻找。。。

2009-07-15T10:36:00.005+03:00

感觉闷闷的。。。不是没事情做，就是做起事来没起劲似的。。。
为何有如此感觉。。到底是什么让我的精神和冲劲给冷却了呢。。。

寻找。。寻找。。还是在寻找。。。

满脑袋的疑问。。还是转不通。。。

心里满满的情绪。。还是压抑得无法喘过气似的。。。

我能寻找到方向吗?。。
我能突破所有一层层的压迫，障碍，自我。。。在次寻会真正的自由吗?

我实在的迷惘。。

2009-05-23T15:12:00.004+03:00

I read below question from pastor Jeff blog...

"Jesus was often alone but never lonely.

People are hardly alone but often lonely.

Can you and I be alone and yet not be lonely?"

Is a good question...

Many people fill up their time with many program...just want to avoid to be alone or to be lonely... ...hm...i think people much more want to avoid is "to be lonely"...

Lonely can be anywhere, any time..even though u are in crowed place, even though u are surrounded by many people..., even though your daily program is full....

This lonely will drive u no where...This lonely will cause sense of emptiness...This lonely is showing the insecure in life...

I did experience before..sometime it still there..why?

See a few people comment "... we have father, son , spirit...where got time to be alone and lonely... " Hm..did i realise and notice this truth...? If i felt the lonely..what does it mean...?

I got to go back and seek GOD....only him can replace the loneliness in my heart. :)

Thank God for who he is in my life. “LORD OF ALL”

2009-05-19T07:01:00.001+03:00

Lately, I was stressed by my work. Everything is seem so uncertain to me.
I was overloaded by work, surrounding by the pressure and demand from my superior and facing UN-reconcile relationship among colleague. All these had overwhelmed me day after day! And this pressure unknowingly had affected my other aspect of life especially my physical health, emotion health and spiritual health. My life is like roller coaster, up and down.

I was depressed! I was fearful! I was discouraged! I was uncertainly! I was weak! I was frustrated with situation where I am! My mind is full with complaining and confuse, my heart filled with bitterness…my attitude even worst!

Besides facing the work issue, my spiritual, physical and emotion grew dry as well. I don’t know how to deal with the situation and issue. The fears in me unknowingly weaken my faith. I start fearful of things that uncertainly in life. The more I focus on uncertainly, the more I fearful. My mind is full with negative thoughts that drive me nowhere.

With the struggle and helpless, I thank GOD for never give me up. I Thank God for his love, grace and mercy. The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not in want. He makes me lie down in green pasture, he lead me beside quiet water. He delivered me.

One day, In the CG, God use this song to minister me. “Come to the father, though your gift is small. Broken heart, broken mind, he will take them all…” This is the call that God want me to respond…He want me to surrender…He want me to trust him… He makes me realize with my own strength I can do nothing. God also remind me who he is. He cares for me. He knows my situation. He loves me. With this encouragement and guidance, I find strength and hope.

Beside the ministering part, God send me shepherd as a helper and supporter in this battle. We spend time sharing, listening, praying and worshipping GOD.
I find release of my emotion in praying and worshipping GOD. The tears draw me near to GOD. With the confession of broken heart and mind, I surrender. I submit.

In the bible, Philippians 4: 4-7, prayer once again strengthen my faith in GOD. I learned to convert all my worries and fear into prayer and present to Lord. I learn to reject negative thoughts and cursing mind through prayer. With prayer and thanks giving, I find peace.

In the bible, Matthew 6:34, God remind me, He is sovereign GOD. Everything is in his control. His grace will be there for me and is sufficient for me. He is omnipotent, he is every where, and His verse leads me how to deal with issue every day. I learn to live in His grace and love.

And with verse 2 chronicle 20:12 and 2 chronicle 20:15 my shepherd sharing with me, I learn that, the whole battle is belong to GOD. This is GOD battle. I have to Trust GOD.

Day by day I learn to surrender; day by day I find strength in GOD. GOD reveals himself to me as LORD of LORD and King of King. With his presence, I find confidence and trust in the lord. With his presence, my hearts soften, with his presence I find assurance. I have a great GOD that I can depend on; I have a lovely GOD that never fails to love me. I have a faithful GOD that always standby for me. I have Lord be my shepherd that always know my need and ever present help. (Ps 23)
I know GOD is with me in my workplace, home and every where I go. He will never leave me nor forsake me. With his presence, I learn to manage and do the best I can, whatever beyond my control, I leave it to GOD. I thank GOD for Who HE is in my life that I have a new experience with him.

Praise the LORD!

Sick and Stressful month ~over~

2009-04-03T04:11:00.005+03:00

This year March'09, is the month tat I see many time of doctor...
More than 3 0r 4 time if I m not wrong...
I'm really sick of getting sick again and again....
A lot plan and activity got to hold on...
Mind getting very negative...emotion very down....
further more have to take medicine...

Abba father, i don't want to get sick anymore...please heal me...
I know My unwell will affect my husband...making him even more worry...
Father Lord, please restore me and give me a strong body and mind..
may you restore my health....please

Beside it was a sick month, is also the month that i faced a lot of stress...
~A stressful month ~

However, Lord I want to give thank to you for releasing my stress...
when my stress up to very high high peak...God, you quiet down my heart...
I know is you...you are the one that give me strength and keep my heart cool...
You remind me of you in many way so that i can hold on to u again and again...
So scare to see my way to response to stress with my own strength. People around me so scared of me..and whole atmosphere change become very tension. However, Lord Your presence still me again and again.That i enable to complete the task with calm and cool... and loose my tension again.

Lord I start to reliase "How powerless we are that we din even know we are in the powerless."

Lord, Thank for seeking me, thank for listening to my prayer, thank for your mercy and grace...
Thank for giving me a chance repent to you....and learn to depend on u again again. In you I know I am safe. in you I know I will be secure. In you I know there is a strength.

Today I am on mc again. Resting at home...thinking of work..Thank God for reminding to take this time having quiet moment with him. Think deeply in my soul is yearning for it...

Before going for the HK trip... I need to spend even more time withGOD...take a good break with him .. and listen to his voice

Lord, I give thank and commit every thing unto u...May your presence be with me and continue guide me thru every step in my life. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

I need new strength...from you O Lord

2009-03-11T13:27:00.004+02:00

Stress …stress…stress…Super stress...

God, please give me new strength…

Lord, let your presence be my strength, courage and hope...
Lord, let your presence still every movement in my live…

The Lord is my shepherd,
I shall not be in want…
He makes me lie down in green pasture,
He leads me beside quiet water
He restores my soul…

My Direction?

2008-11-28T09:36:00.004+02:00

I come back again…
To lay my thoughts and feelings again…

Last two weeks were a very tough weeks for me in my work place…the stress level just sudden heat up 70% high …It was a really tough week for me to function as normal. Thank God for his grace … pull through & the stress is over…my colleague had come back…one more person to share the load…My work have been lightened up!

I have been thinking in my mind… what is my direction in my career aspect till this stage? What I want to achieve in my career and with this current job…does it help me achieve what I want…? I don't want to work blindly - work for the sake of work...

It is not because workload or job scope…
It is not because people…
It is not because stress…
It is not because stability…

It really matter the current situation I was in right now does it align with my Goal, my dream…? Does it help me achieve what I want?

What i expected to gain in this co? Experience, stability, knowledge…that’s all? Or more than that...

Guide me O Lord, that i may know your destiny for me , that i may know the purpose of staying in this co ...that i may know what you want me to learn in this assignment...

My journey with Lord...

2008-09-19T18:01:00.001+03:00

The Universe is in your Hand

2008-09-15T08:15:00.002+03:00

Psalm 8:3-4

When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers,the moon and the stars, which you have set in place,what is man that you are mindful of him,and the son of man that you care for him?

Job 42:3,6

Surely I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know. Therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes.

The above photo and verses really strike deep into my heart deeply...that called out my spirit and desire...Lord, i just want to yield to you again and again ...of my every single thought, concern, worries, burden and even myself ... you are my dearest and closest Abba Father that no one can understand, identify n walk with me in this path Except you....

The universe is in your Hands...

Lord, truly your way is higher than my way and your thought is higher than my thought... help me to TRUST in you with all my heart and all mind and lean not on my own understanding. In all my way, acknowledge You. Surely LORD( My creator, King of king and Lord of lord, Lord of my life) will make my path straight.

Strengthen My Believe , O Lord...

* Lord you are not only 'The saviour of my life', but you are 'Lord of my life'.*

...Counting HIS blessing ...Is my joy ...

2008-08-29T10:41:00.011+03:00

Is time to Count GOD's blesssing...

Is time to Journal GOD's blessing...

Is time to Acknowledge His blessing...

Is time to Give thanks of His blessing...

His Amazing Grace ...' My Abba Father, I Love You'....

LORD,

In the beginning of this marriage journey, you blessed me with this man ..which is my soul mate, my hubby, my listener, my lover...

In the preparation of marriage, you blessed me to have this church wedding..to declare our Love before you and in you...

Lord, you bless us with a beautiful church, which is very new and had a good location ;

Lord, you bless us with Bridal Shop, Makeup Artist, Photographer, Videographer with reasonable price and proffesional skills;

Lord, you bless us with supportive families which never fails of giving us their support and encouragement;

Lord, you bless us with committees that perform very well to make the ceremony smoothy and success .. further more they have warm up our and guest's heart ;

Lord, you bless us with the beautiful chalet 'Chevron' that we can spend night there and use that place for actual wedding day...( I like that place v v much) ;

Lord, you bless us with a good weather..for you hold the rain on that day...;

Lord, you bless us in the ceremony itself..with your presence and love..we overwhelme by your love and were touched ;

Lord, you bless us by filling our heart with joy and thanks giving that we learn to appreciate and treasure every moment and every single process on that day;

Lord, you bless us with people, which is our friends who came to 'Testify Our Love' and 'Bless Us'...we received many blessing , we received many sweet memories and many gifts ... ;

Lord, you love us and teach us many lessons that we came to know...this is your way of Love ,

* You teach me to put greater trust in you above all circumstance * You teach me to relax in you and enjoy - seeing how your power and love work in this wedding days* You open my mind to understand what is love and to reveal it to me* you teach me the lesson thru things & situation *

Lord, indeed the lessons is full with many tastes at the beginning state..but by Your Grace i find breakthru especially my walk with you and my desire for you.

Who can compare with you? None.

I will forever praise you and forever declare that " You are the Lover of my soul"....I love you Jesus...

2008-08-27T10:11:00.007+03:00

Personally, I find below Article speak to me alot... I thank God for this article that give me new in sight out in managing my marriage life.. I pray that God will continue be the center in this marriage life... Continue be the light ( direction) in this family .... The more we denied our own right and pride , priorities what is right (truth) believe our perspective will change .. Wider.. Positive and ..more receptive... Don't let the emotion/feeling to decide where we to GO..but let the only truth to set us free..^_^ ( that can lead us to our destiny)

Boundaries and Your Spouse (By Dr Henry Cloud & Dr John Townsend)

If there were ever a relationship where boundaries could get confused, it is marriage, where by design husband and wife become one flesh” (Eph. 5:31). Boundaries foster separateness. Marriage has as one of its goals the giving up of separateness and becoming, instead of two, one. What a potential state of confusion, especially for someone who does not have clear boundaries to begin with!

More marriages fail because of poor boundaries than for any other reason. This chapter will apply the laws of boundaries, as well as its myths, to the marital relationship

Is This Yours, Mine, or Ours?

A marriage mirrors the relationship that Christ has with his bride, the church, Christ has some things that only he can do, the church has some things that only it can do, and they have some things they do together. Only Christ could die. Only the church can represent him on earth in his absence and obey his commands. And together, they work on many things, such as saving the lost. Similarly, in marriage, some duties one spouse does, some the other does, and some they do together. When the two become one on their wedding day, spouses do not lose their individual identities. Each participates in the relationship, and each has his or her own life.

No one would have a problem deciding who wears the dress and who wears the tie. It’s a little trickier to decide who balances the checkbook and who mows the lawn. But these duties can be worked out according to the spouses’ individual abilities and interests. Where boundaries can get confusing is in the elements of personhood—the elements of the soul that each person processes and can choose to share with someone else.

The problem arises when one trespasses on the other’s personhood, when one crosses a line and tries to control the feelings, attitudes, behaviors, choices, and values of the other. These things only each individual can control. To try to control these things is to violate someone’s boundaries, and ultimately, it will fail. Our relationship with Christ— and any other successful relationship—is based on freedom. Let’s look at some common examples: Feelings One of the most important elements that promotes intimacy between two people is the ability of each to take responsibility for his or her own feelings.

I was counseling a couple who were having marital problems because of the husband’s drinking.
I asked the wife to tell her husband how she felt when he drank.

“I feel like he doesn’t think about what he’s doing. I feel like he ..

“No, you are evaluating his drinking. How do you feel about it?”

“I feel like he doesn’t......
“No,” I said, “That is what you think about him. How do you feel when he drinks?”

She started to cry.

“I feel very alone and afraid.” She had finally said what she felt.

At that point her husband reached out and put his hand on her arm. “I never knew you were afraid,” he said. “I would never want to make you afraid.”

This conversation was a real turning point in their relationship. For years the wife had been nagging her husband about the way he was and about the way he should be. He responded by blaming her and justifying his actions. In spite of hours and hours of talking, they had continued to talk past each other. Neither was taking responsibility for his or her own feelings and communicating them.

We do not communicate our feelings by saving, “I feel that you…” We communicate our feelings by saying, I feel sad, or hurt, or lonely, or scared, or…” Such vulnerability is the beginning of intimacy and caring.

Feelings are also a warning signal telling us that we need to do something. For example, if you are angry at someone for something she did, it is your responsibility to go to her and tell her you are angry and why. If you think that your anger is her problem and that she needs to fix it, you may wait years. And your anger may turn to bitterness. If you are angry, even if someone else has sinned against you, it is your responsibility to do something about it.

This was a lesson Susan needed to learn. When her husband, Jim, did not come home from work early enough for them to have time together, Susan became angry. Instead of confronting her husband, she would become very quiet for the rest of the evening. Jim became annoyed with having to pull out of her what was wrong. Eventually, hating her pouting, he left her alone. Not dealing with hurt or anger can kill a relationship. Susan needed to talk with Jim about how she was feeling, instead of waiting for him to draw her out. Even though she felt he had been the one who had hurt her, she needed to take responsibility for her own hurt and anger.

Jim and Susan did not solve their problem by her simply expressing her anger to him. She needed to go one more step. She needed to clarify her desires in the conflict.

Desires
Desires are another element of personhood that each spouse needs to take responsibility for. Susan was angry because she wanted Jim to be home. She blamed him for being late.
When they came in for counseling, our conversation went like this: “Susan, tell me why you get angry at Jim,” I said. “Because he’s late,” she replied.

“That can’t be the reason,” I said. “People don’t make other people angry. Your anger has to come from something inside of you.”

“What do you mean? He’s the one who comes home late.”

“Well, what if you had plans to go out with your friends that night? Would you still be angry at him for being late?”

“Well, no. That’s different.”

“What’s different? You said you were angry because he was late, and he would still be late, yet you wouldn’t be angry.

“Well, in that situation, he wouldn’t be doing anything to hurt me.”

“Not exactly,” I pointed out. “The difference is that you wouldn’t be wanting something that he didn’t want to give. Your disappointed desire is what hurts you, not his being late.

The problem lies in who is responsible for the want. It is your want, not his. You are responsible for getting it fulfilled. That is a rule of life. We do not get everything we want, and we all must grieve over our disappointments instead of punish others for them:”

“What about common respect? Staying at the office is selfish,” she said.

“Well, he wants to work some nights and you want him home. Both of you want something for yourselves. We could say that you are as selfish as he is. The truth is that neither one of you is selfish. You just have conflicting wants.

This is what marriage is about—getting conflicting wants worked out.”

There was no “bad guy” in this situation. Both Jim and Susan had needs. Jim needed to work late, and Susan needed him home. Problems arise when we make someone else responsible for our needs and wants, and when we blame them for our disappointments.

Limits on What I Can Give

We are finite creatures and must give as we “decide in [our] heart to give” (2 Cor. 9:7), being aware of when we are giving past the love point to the resentment point. Problems arise when we blame someone else for our own lack of limits. Often spouses will do more than they really want to and then resent the other for not stopping them from over giving.

Bob had this problem. His wife, Nancy, wanted the perfect home, including handmade patios, landscaping, and remodeling. She was always coming up with something for him to do around the house. He was beginning to resent her projects.

When he came to see me, I asked him why he was angry.

“Well, because she wants so much. I can’t find any time for myself,” he said. “What do you mean ‘can’t’? Don’t you mean ‘won’t’?”

“No, I can’t. She would be angry if I didn’t do the work.”

“Well, that’s her problem; it’s her anger.”

“Yes, but I have to listen to it.”

“No, you don’t,” I said. “You are choosing to do all of these things for her, and you are choosing to take the tongue lashings that happen if you don’t. Any time you spend doing things for her is a gift from you; if you do not want to give it, you don’t have to. Stop blaming her for all of this.’’
Bob didn’t like that. He wanted her to stop wanting instead of his learning to say no.

“How much time do you want to give her each week for home improvement? I asked.
He thought for a minute. “About four hours. I could work on things for her and still have a little time left for a hobby.”

“Then tell her that you have been thinking about your time and that with all the other things you are doing for the family, you would like to give her four hours a week to work around the house. She is free to use that time any way she chooses.”

“But what if she says that four hours is not enough?”

Explain to her that you understand that this may not be enough time to complete all the jobs she wants done, but those are her wants, not yours. Therefore, she is responsible for her own wants, and she is free to be creative in how she gets them done. She could earn some extra money and hire someone. She could learn to do them herself. She could ask a friend to help. Or, she could cut down on her wants. It is important that she learns that you are not going to take responsibility for her wants. You’re going to give as you choose, and she is responsible for the rest.

Bob saw the logic in my suggestion and decided to talk with Nancy. It was not pretty at first. No one had ever said no to Nancy before, and she did not take well to it. But, over time, Bob took responsibility for his limits instead of wishing that Nancy would not want so much, and his limits took effect. She learned something that she had never learned before: the world does not exist for her. Other people are not extensions of her wants and desires. Other people have wants and needs of their own, and we must negotiate a fair and loving relationship and respect each other’s limits.

The key here is that the other person is not responsible for our limits; we are. Only we know what we can and want to give, and only we can be responsible for drawing that line. If we cannot draw it, we can quickly become resentful.

Applying the Laws of Boundaries to Marriage

In Chapter 5 we talked about the ten laws of boundaries.
Let’s apply a few of those laws to troubled marital situations.

The Law of Sowing and Reaping

Many times one spouse may be out of control and may not suffer the consequences of this behavior. The husband yells at his wife, and she tries to be more loving. In effect, the evil (yelling) produces good things (more loving) for him. Or, a wife overspends, and her husband pays the consequences. He gets a second job to cover the mound of bills.

Natural consequences are needed to resolve these problems. A wife needs to tell her overly critical husband that if he continues to berate her, she will go into another room until he can discuss the problem rationally.

Or, she could say something like, “I will not talk about this issue with you anymore alone. I will only talk in the presence of a counselor. Or, “If you start yelling at me again, I will go to Jane’s house to spend the night.” The husband with the spendthrift wife needs to cancel the credit cards or tell her she needs to get a second job to pay the bills. These spouses all need to let the out-of-control spouses suffer the consequences of their actions.

A friend of mine decided to let his wife suffer the consequences of her chronic lateness. He had nagged and nagged his wife about her tardiness, to no avail. Finally, he realized he could not change her; he could only change his response to her. Tired of suffering the consequences of her behavior, he decided to give them back to her.

One night they had plans to go to a banquet, and he did not want to be late. In advance, he told her that he wanted to be on time and that if she were not ready by 6:00 P.M., he would leave without her. She was late, and he left.

When he came home that night, she screamed, “How could you leave without me!” He let her know that her lateness was what caused her to miss the banquet and that he was sad to have to go alone, but he did not want to miss the dinner. After a few more incidents like this, she knew that her lateness would affect her and not him, and she changed.

These moves are not manipulative, as the other spouse will accuse. They are examples of someone limiting how they will allow themselves to be treated and exhibiting self-control. The natural consequences are falling on the shoulders of the responsible party.

The Law of Responsibility

We talked earlier about taking responsibility for ourselves and having responsibility to others. The above examples show that. People who set limits exhibit self-control and show responsibility for themselves. They act responsible to their partner by confronting him or her. Setting limits is an act of love in the marriage; by binding and limiting the evil, they protect the good.

Taking responsibility for someone’s anger, pouting, and disappointments by giving in to that person’s demands or controlling behavior destroys love in a marriage. Instead of taking responsibility for people we love, or rescuing them, we need to show responsibility to them by confronting evil when we see it. This is truly loving our partner and the marriage. The most responsible behavior possible is usually the most difficult.

The Law of Power

We have looked at our basic inability to change another person. A nagging spouse, in effect, keeps the problem going. Accepting someone as she is, respecting her choice to be that way, and then giving her appropriate consequences is the better path. When we do this, we execute the power we do have, and we stop trying to wield the power no one has. Contrast these ways of REACTING

BEFORE BOUNDARIES VS AFTER BOUNDARIES

1. “Stop yelling at me. You must be nicer.”
1. “You can continue to yell if you choose to.
But I will choose not to be in your presence when you act that way.

2. “You’ve just got to stop drinking. It’s ruining our family. Please listen. You’re wrecking our lives.”
2. You may choose to not deal with your drinking if you want. But I will not continue to expose myself and the children to this chaos. The next time you are drunk, we will go to the Wilsons’ for the night, and we will tell them why we are there. Your drinking is your choice. What I will put up with is mine.”

3. You are a pervert to look at pornography. That’s so degrading. What kind of a sick person are you anyway?”
3. “I will not choose to share you sexually with naked women in magazines. It’s up to you. I will only sleep with someone who is interested in me. Make up your mind and choose.”

These are all examples of taking power over what you do have power over—yourself—and giving up trying to control and have power over someone else.

The Law of Evaluation

When you confront your husband or wife and begin to set boundaries, your partner may be hurt. In evaluating the pain that your boundary setting causes your spouse, remember that love and limits go together. When you set boundaries be lovingly responsible to the person in pain. Spouses who are wise and loving will accept boundaries and act responsibly toward them.
Spouses who are controlling and self-centered will react angrily.

Remember that a boundary always deals with yourself, not the other person. You are not demanding that your spouse do something—even respect your boundaries. You are setting boundaries to say what you will do or will not do. Only these kinds of boundaries are enforceable, for you do have control over yourself. Do not confuse boundaries with a new way to control a spouse. It is the opposite. It is giving up control and beginning to love. You are giving up trying to control your spouse and allowing him to take responsibility for his own behavior.

The Law of Exposure
In a marriage, as in no other relationship, the need for revealing your boundaries is important. Passive boundaries, such as withdrawal, triangulation, pouting, affairs, and passive-aggressive behavior, are extremely destructive to a relationship. Passive ways of showing people that they do not have control over you never lead to intimacy. They never educate the other on who you really are; they only estrange.

Boundaries need to be communicated first verbally and then with actions. They need to be clear and unapologetic. Remember the types of boundaries we listed earlier: skin. words, truth, physical space, time, emotional distance, other people, consequences. All of these boundaries need to be respected and revealed at different times in marriage.

Skin.
Each spouse needs to respect the other’s physical body boundaries. Physical violations can range from hurtful displays of affection to physical abuse. The Bible says that the husband and wife have “authority” over each other’s body (1 Cor. 7:4-6 NASB); this is mutual authority, given freely. One should always remember Jesus principle: “Treat others as you would want to be treated.”

Words.
Your words need to be clear and spoken in love. Confront your spouse directly. Say no. Don’t use passive resistance. Don’t pout or withdraw. Say things like, “I do not feel comfortable with that. I do not want to. I won’t.”

Truth.
Paul says that “each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully” (Eph. 4:25). Honest communication is always best. This includes telling the other person when he is not aware that he is violating one of God’s standards. You also need to own the truth about your feelings and hurts and communicate those feelings directly to your spouse with love.

Physical Space.
When you need time away, tell your spouse. Sometimes you need space for nourishment; other times you need space for limit setting. In either instance, your spouse should not have to guess why you do not want him around for a while. Communicate clearly so your spouse does not feel as though he is being punished, but knows he is experiencing the consequences of his out-of-control behavior (Matt. 18:17; 1 Cor. 5:9-13).

Emotional Distance.
If you are in a troubled marriage, where your partner has had an affair, for example, you may need emotional space. Waiting to trust again is wise. You need to see if your spouse is truly repentant, and your spouse needs to see that her behavior has a cost. Your spouse may interpret this as punishment, but the Bible teaches that we are to judge a person by her actions, not by her words (James 2:14-26).

In addition, a hurt heart takes time to heal. You cannot rush back into a position of trust with too much unresolved hurt. That hurt needs to he exposed and communicated. If you are hurting, you need to own that hurt.

Time.
Each spouse needs time apart from the relationship. Not just for limit setting, as we pointed out above, but for self-nourishment. The Proverbs 31 wife has a life of her own; she is out doing many things. The same is true of her husband. They have their own time for doing what they like and for seeing their own friends.

Many couples have trouble with this aspect of marriage. They feel abandoned when their spouse wants time apart. In reality, spouses need time apart, which makes then realize the need to be back together. Spouses in healthy relationships cherish each other’s space and are champions of each others causes.

Other People.
Some spouses need the support of others to set boundaries. If they haven’t ever stood up for themselves, they need help from friends and the church in learning how. If you are too weak to set and enforce boundaries, get help from supporters outside your marriage. Do not, however, seek support from someone of the opposite sex that could lead to an affair. Get help from other people within relationships that have built-in boundaries, such as counselors or support groups.

Consequences.
Communicate consequences clearly and enforce them firmly as you have said you would. Spelling out consequences in advance and enforcing them gives your spouse a choice about whether or not he or she wants the consequences to happen. Because people have control over their own behavior, they have control over the consequences of that behavior. But That Doesn’t Sound Submissive Whenever we talk about a wife setting boundaries, someone asks about the biblical idea of submission. What follows is not a full treatise on submission, but some general issues you should keep in mind.

First, both husbands and wives are supposed to practice submission, not just wives. “Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ” (Eph. 5:21). Submission is always the free choice of one party to another. Wives choose to submit to their husbands, and husbands choose to submit to their wives.

Christ’s relationship with the church is a picture of how a husband and wife should relate: “Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything.
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless” (Eph. 5:24-27).

Whenever submission issues are raised, the first question that needs to be asked is, What is the nature of the marital relationship? Is the husband’s relationship with his wife similar to Christ’s relationship with the church? Does she have free choice, or is she a slave “under the law”? Many marital problems arise when a husband tries to keep his wife “under the law,” and she feels all the emotions the Bible promises the law will bring: wrath, guilt, insecurity, and alienation
(Rom. 4:15; James 2:10; Gal. 5:4).

Freedom is one issue that needs to be examined; grace is another. Is the husband’s relationship with his wife full of grace and unconditional love? Is she in a position of “no condemnation as the church is (Rom. 8:1), or does her husband fail to “wash her” of all guilt? Usually husbands who quote Ephesians 5 turn their wives into slaves and condemn them for not submitting. If she incurs wrath or condemnation for not submitting, she and her husband do not have a grace—filled Christian marriage; they have a marriage “under the law.”

Often, in these situations, the husband is trying to get his wife to do something that either is hurtful or takes away her will. Both of these actions are sins against himself. “Husband ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself.
After all, no one ever hated his own bodies, but he feeds and cares for it, just as Christ does the church” (Eph. 5:28-29). Given this, the idea of slave-like submission is impossible to hold. Christ never takes away our will or asks us to do something hurtful. He never pushes us past our limits. He never uses us as objects. Christ “gave himself up” for us.

He takes care of us as he would his own body.

We have never seen a “submission problem” that did not have a controlling husband at its root. When the wife begins to set clear boundaries, the lack of Christ-likeness in a controlling husband becomes evident because the wife is no longer enabling his immature behavior.

She is confronting the truth and setting biblical limits on hurtful behavior. Often, when the wife sets boundaries, the husband begins to grow up. A Question of Balance “I can’t get him to spend any time with me. All he wants to do is go with his friends to sporting events. He never wants to see me. Meredith complained.

“What do you say to that?” I asked her husband.

“That’s not true at all,” Paul replied. “It feels like all we have is togetherness. She calls me at work two or three times a day. She is waiting at the door when I get home and wants to talk. She has our evenings and weekends all planned out. It drives me crazy. So, I try to get away and go to a game or to play golf. I feel smothered. “How often do you try to get out?”

“Any time I can. Probably about two nights a week and one afternoon on the weekend.

“What do you do at those times?” I asked Meredith. “Well, I wait for him to come home. I miss him very much.” “Don’t you have something you want to do for yourself?”

“No. My family is my life. I live for them. I hate it when they are gone and we can’t have time together.”

“Well, it’s not like you never have time together,” I said.
“But it is true that you don’t have all the time together. And when that happens, Paul seems to be relieved and you are distressed.

Can you explain that imbalance?”

“What do you mean, ‘imbalance’?” she asked.

“Every marriage is made up of two ingredients, togetherness and separateness. In good marriages, the partners carry equal loads of both of those. Let’s say there are 100 points of togetherness and 100 points of separateness. In a good relationship, one partner expresses 50 points of togetherness and 50 points of separateness, and the other does the same. They both do things on their own, and that creates some mutual longing for the other, and the togetherness creates some need for separateness. But in your relationship, you have divided the 200 points differently. You are expressing all of the 100 together points, and he is expressing the 1oo points of separateness.

“If you want him to move toward you,” I continued, “you need to move away from him and create some space for longing. I don’t think Paul ever gets a chance to miss you. You’re always pursuing him, and he is turning away to create space. If you would create some space, he would have some space to long for you in, and then he would pursue you.

“That’s exactly right,” Paul broke in. “Honey, it’s like when you were getting your graduate degree and were gone so much. Remember? I used to long to see you. I don’t get a chance to miss you now. You’re always around.”

Meredith was reluctant to concede my point, but eager to explore with Paul ways to bring balance to their marital relationship.

Balance.

It’s something that God has wired into every system. Every system tries to find balance in any way it can. And many dimensions need to be balanced in a marriage: power, strength, togetherness, sex, and so on. Problems come when, instead of trading places in these areas, one spouse is always powerful and the other powerless; one spouse is always strong and the other weak; one spouse always wants togetherness and the other wants separateness; one spouse always wants sex and the other doesn’t. In each case, the couple has struck a balance, but it is not a mutual balance.

Boundaries help create mutual balance, instead of split balance. They help couples keep each other accountable. If someone does not have boundaries and begins to do another’s work for him, such as creating all the togetherness in the relationship, that person is on the road to codependency or worse. The other partner will live out the opposite side of the split Boundaries keep partners accountable through consequences and force the balance to become mutual. The Preacher in Ecclesiastes says, “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven” (3: 1).

There are balanced polarities in life and relationship. When you find yourself in an unequal relationship, you may lack boundaries. Setting boundaries may correct the imbalance. For example, when Paul sets boundaries on Meredith’s demands, he forces her to become more independent. Resolution It is often easy to see problem, but difficult to make the hard choices and risks that result in change. Let’s look at the steps toward personal change in a marital relationship.

1. Inventory the symptom. First, you need to recognize the problem and agree to take action to solve it. You will not resolve the problem by wishing. You need to own the problem, whether it be sex, discipline of the children, lack of togetherness, or unfair spending of money.

2. Identify the specific boundary problem. One step beyond identifying the symptom is putting your finger on the specific boundary issue. For instance, the symptom may be that one person does not want sex; the boundary problem may be that this person does not say no often enough in other areas of the relationship so that this is the one place that she has some power. Or, she may feel as if she does not have enough control in the sexual arena. She may feel powerless; she may feel that her choices are not honored.

3. Find the origins of the conflict. This is probably not the first relationship in which this boundary issue has arisen. You probably learned to relate this way in a significant relationship in the family in which you grew up. Certain fears that were developed in that relationship are still operative. You need to name these original issues; you may need to stop confusing your parent with your spouse. No other relationship repeats parental conflicts more often than the marriage relationship.

4. Take in the good. This step involves establishing a support system. Remember, “Boundaries are not built in a vacuum’’ We need bonding and support before we build boundaries; the fear of abandonment keeps many people from setting boundaries in the first place.

For this reason, establish a support system that will encourage boundary setting in your marriage. This may be a co-dependency group, Al-Anon, a therapist, a marriage counselor, or a pastor. Do not set boundaries alone. You have not set boundaries because you are afraid; the only way out is through support. “And if one can overpower him who is alone, two can resist him. A cord of three strands is not quickly torn apart (Ecc. 4:12). Boundaries are like muscles. They need to be built up in a safe support system and allowed to grow. If you try to shoulder too much weight too quickly, your muscles may tear or be pulled. Get help.

5. Practice. Practice new boundaries in safe relationships, relationships in which people love you unconditionally. Tell a good friend no when you can’t do lunch, or let her know when your opinion differs from hers, or give something to her without expecting anything in return .As you practice setting limits with safe people you will begin to grow in your ability to set limits in your marriage.

6. Say no to the bad. Put limits on the bad in your marriage. Stand up to abuse; say no to unreasonable demands. Remember the parable of the talents. There was no growth without risk and a facing up to fear. Being successful is not as important as stepping out and trying.

7.Forgive. To not forgive is to lack boundaries. Unforgiving people allow other people to control them. Setting people who have hurt you free from an old debt is to stop wanting something from them; it sets you tree as well. Forgiving can lead to proactive behavior in the present, instead of passive wishes from the past.

8. Become proactive. Instead of allowing someone else to be in control, figure out what you want to do, set your course, and stick to it. Decide what your limits are, what you will allow yourself to be a party to, what you will no longer tolerate, and what consequences you will set. Define yourself proactively, and you will be ready to maintain your boundaries when the time comes.

9. Learn to love in freedom and responsibility. Remember the goal of boundaries; love coming out of freedom. This is the true self-denial of the New Testament. When you are in control of yourself, you can give and sacrifice for loved ones in a helpful way instead of giving in to destructive behavior and self-centeredness. This kind of freedom allows one to give in a way that leads to fruit. Remember, “no greater love has anyone than to lay down his life for his friends.” This is to live up to the law of Christ, to serve one another. But this must be done out of freedom, not boundaryless compliance.

Setting and receiving firm boundaries with your spouse can lead to a much greater intimacy. But you not only need to address boundaries with your spouse; you need to address boundaries with your children. And it’s never too late to start.

Thank you!

2008-08-10T10:22:00.002+03:00

Before my memories fade away…just want to drop down my feeling, my thoughts in this blog. Anyway I don’t think these memories will fade away … for it is very memorable to me. ^_^

About a Year, me and Thomas have been busy running here and there, planning and preparing for the wedding. To be very frank, it’s not an easy process at all for both of us, but we do enjoy it.
In the mid of preparation, we have quarrel, we have an argument and we also have many sweet time spend together…

Now I realized why Groom always force by the sisters, to try four type of tastes -“Sour, Sweet, Bitter and Spicy” before he can bring bride home..

It’s to remind groom to appreciate the relationship and prepare this four tastes in life. ^_^ ( this is wat i think...)

Thru the preparation and many decisions had made, I find myself grew to be more mature. May it be emotion, mentally and character. I know myself more, I know Thomas (My Hubby) more, I know My God-’Jesus’ more and I know my family and friends more.

I realize myself is the perfectionist. Everything I demand to be 100% perfect (included man). Whenever thing not come to my expected way, that will affect my mood, response and action. These happen many times in the midst of preparation. My response and action had hurt my love one and further more myself, also it had been turn our relationship to sour and make things worst.

However, Thanks God for revealing this blind spots to me.

I learn to acknowledge that in life there is nothing under the sun will be 100% perfect. May it be referring to things or to man. Further more, Man is unique, specially created by GOD, who am I to condemn?

I learn to be more gracious to man and to appreciate things around me.

Besides, learning to be gracious, I learn to trust GOD more, my hubby more and people more.

I learn to look things/situation at different view and more positive side.

I learn to surrender my stubbornness…

For that period, it was really a tension period to me…so many changes and commitment at once… Really was not my boundary to take care… I 'm weak …

Thank God for HIS's grace and love that delivery me new strength and new way…

This process, I truly encountered his goodness and faithfulness in my life.
He blessed me with everything we planned. He answer every prayers and meet our need.
He protect us and delivery us in many way…

When times come close to wedding day, there is another lesson for both of us to learn.

The word called “Willingness”.

Hearts of Willingness to bless and to love beyond their comfort zone and conveniences.
We see this willingness hearts in our family and friends. We were so touched by their love, support and encouragement.

Nowadays, most of the people is quite self-centre. Commitment sometime will only make due to certain conditions/benefits.

However, we Thank GOD, they are not. They are so real, sincere that I would like to describe every one of them as Angels ( Special Gift) that sent by GOD.

We truly experience and we realized we gain a very unique and special friendship and kinship.
They do all the way for us just because they want to bless us and love us.

You are Precious Gift to us!

~ Thank You ~ We LOVE You~

Wedding Photo Album

2008-07-26T20:00:00.000+03:00

A new year , new month...2008

2008-01-12T04:38:00.000+02:00

A new year , new month...

Jan 2008...

What a challenging year to me... just want to take a deep breathe and slowly let the air release from my nose...

Feeling refresh and release ...

Letting the air to flow in, flow through and flow out ...hoping that this may wash and clean my mind again..

Immerged with natural is the best way for me to bring me out from the complexity of this world and look forward simplicity.

Let the PAST be the PAST...

Let the Today be the New start...

Let the life continue to move on and on... toward the light tower...

Thank God for inputting this simplicity in my heart... teaching me a new lessons each day. Is time to have a change. Is time to have a rest.. Everything have it own perfect timing.. let his perfect timing draw me one step closer to HIM..MY FOREVER BEST FRIEND ..MY SAVIOUR!

Lord, Just want to Give Thank of who you are in my life. You are not like us..You Always faithful. You see me as a WHOLE. You LOVE ME as Who I am. Who can compare with you? NONE! Lord, Thanks for your perfect love and grace. I know in you there is Sufficiency. In you i will find comfort. In what ever situation ahead of me, I know there is your Footprint!

My 1st Hawaii Dance

2007-12-02T17:55:00.000+02:00

MY FIRST D&D @ TIONALE

My dept - local and oversea colleagues

Yesterday was my company Dinner and Dance.

It was one of the D&D that so memorable that I hardly forget!

In one of the game seesion, in order to increase point for my team, I was " half sabo" by my team to go on stage and dance "Hawaii dance"!!

I can't imagine, wearing grass skirt and flower necklace and shake your body and dance in front of all my local and oversea colleagues...*OH~ really felt shy & embarrased *

I never imgine myself so daring and so sponteneous!

Wow..and guest wat in this competiton among four and i am the winner..
HAHA.. and help my team have a turning point toward first prize.

However i enjoy the whole session very much.

hm..after evaluate..Something that make me so daring to fight for my team could be "team spirit" !

:P Thank GOD for giving me this experience and understand important of team spirit!

Rebuke?!!Yes! Rebuke!

2007-11-15T18:07:00.000+02:00

This week is not an easy week to me...
I fall sick again...sore throat...meantime doing yearly check up.

"Check UP" is my fear factor. for i know my stronghold is there!
However chk-up had done this wed. Result will be out next tuesday.

While waiting the result, i need dress up with faith to carry on daily in my life. I see the uncertainly is near. This time i thank GOD for drawing me closer to him.

Is not easy but i know GOD you will take care of me. Just now while we ( thomas and me) praying over the phone. God remind me this word " Rebuke".

did i rebuke against bad dream i have most of the time?
did i rebuke against sickness, negative thought that is hindering me?
did i rebuke?

I forgot!
Yes! REBUKE! we can rebuke and this is authority God had given us!

beside did i claim on the faith? and what bible say? Did i claim on his words?

Yup. Word of GOD can break the strongholds, bondages and bring complete healing and restoration.

Word Of GOD is the most powerful weapon for us to fight and attack against darkness and deceiveful heart/word/lies!

Jesus is the way, the truth and the life.

Finally we pray together and rebuke it.

I believe prayer is not only pray. But i believe it truly bring forth power for there is GOD ppresence with us.

Lord I pray that u help me thru in this process and tough time. Lord I know, I confess and admit i am weak. But with how weak i am, i need u and i know lord you are my faithful Daddy.

Lord, You know i need support and encouragement, u send sis and bro around me to cover me in prayer and to encourage me and remind me of your goodness.
most important lord, you give yourselves to me that i can share w u anytime and anywhere!

Lord, Thank you for your love to me.
Thank you Lord! Emmanuel! Thank you Jesus!

Mission trip - hope mea-sod

2007-11-15T15:37:00.000+02:00

I learn a lot thru this mission trip. This mission trip broader my view and mind. This mission change my perception and challenge my desire again. This mission trip is like a mirror reflect my life, my walk with GOD.

This mission trip let me know there are many ppl out there is in suffer, in struggle. Also this mission trip help me see there are many ppl out there live strongly and faithfully for GOD. They Love God very much.

When i saw them, i see my faith is nothing. For they truly live by faith and not by sight. When i saw their limitation and struggle and problem, i sympthy them yet they teach me GOD grace is sufficient for them.

Their life is believing and not seeing.
Their love is complety trusting in HIM.

GOD love is for everyone. HIS LOVE got no boundary that can reach out to different ppl !
In HIS LOVE, there is hope, strength, heal , power...everything

This is HIS Amazing LOVE AND GRACE.!

STM - PART 4

2007-11-12T07:37:00.001+02:00

STM - PART 3

2007-11-12T07:35:00.001+02:00

STM - PART 2

2007-11-12T07:34:00.001+02:00

STM - PART 1

2007-11-12T04:23:00.000+02:00

A Romantic Birthday ?!

2007-09-21T18:36:00.000+02:00

When u see the title... you could be tempted and wanna to know How my darling give me a romantic birthday..

well u guess it wrongly. This romantic birthday is organise by my best friend, edna and steven.
so me n thomas just follow thru and indeed we both really enjoy this session very much.

Just want to say thank you to you both ...for arranging a wonderful and romantic program for us that we enjoy tat night so much... the day without restrict & the day full with joy. Thanks sister. This is special gift i like so so much...(MOST)

*Muak* a kiss to you, my sister...
Thank for always there for me when i need listener. Thanks for praying for me and never fail to encouraging me. I really appreciate your care and love...and pray that we both will continue hand in hand run the race together till the day we meet GOD!

L0ve you ya!! ^_^

SeptemBer

2007-09-21T12:06:00.000+02:00

Life getting interesting. One month..there'was only one month...i saw the tremendous change!

You could be asking me..what is that ? what are the changes had happened in your life...?

wow...that is (My relationship with my colleagues)

After my company seminar, my relationship with my colleagues have made one big steps forward! we are like in one gang "close,click, sharing"...and one common interest IE: FOOD!

Many events come along this month ( in my co) and with the events and makan sessions, we know each other more, we open more to each other and we share each other burden( work load) ..more communication ...

i know is GOD doing something! It is by GOD grace he putting all lovely friends around me. I know He LOVE not only for me and within church . But for them! PPL out there as well!

Father help me not to forget of your love. Help me not to forget ppl around me. I know when come together there will have period of rubbing each other shoulder. Lord i pray that my eye continue look upon you alone and not anything else.

Grand me opportunity to sow seed ( your LOVE message) to them. Help me not to give up sharing goodness of you.

Lord, let everystep i walk, i will WAIT upon you. Commit what you entrust unto your hand. In Jesus Name I pray. Amen.

*BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION *

(session one)

My dept. ->colleagues.

Noon time they bring me to cartel cafe for lunch.

Very touch lo...my whole dept le. For i know some of my colleagues constraint, however they just want to bless me all the way.

They bought me present also ..guess wat? Real crystal ( purple and white). No cheap at all ya...make me feel hard to accept it.. but i really like it.

(Session 2)

about 3pm+

my dept +others dept colleagues celebrate birthday with me.. in the office ( CIP room)

they bought me - my favour mango cheese cake. So touch lo..

( Right onward : Lily , charlene and me)

my colleague ( named: orange)

(fragrance dept colleague : Patricia)

(Top: Mei Juan, Annie, Karen zhong, Mun Yee, Orange, Alison, Fei Kan, Bee Lay,Lily, Joanne Theng, Cjhoon lean ; Bottom : Patricia, Rachel ( my head dept) , Joanne chong, Charlene, ME, Joey, Peggy, and Helen)

Thank You my friend! Your have melt my heart once again. and make my day wonderful and memorable and unforgetable

I Thank GOD for you ALL

My birthday wish is may all of them experience GOD LOVE in their life. None of them will be miss out. I believe this is the ever best gift i would like to bless them

May GOD watch over them and bring them come to know him and worship HIM ALONE.

^_^

Photo-Seminar

2007-08-30T11:04:00.000+03:00

Here some photos took during - seminar...at Pan Pacific Hotel

(21 AUG 2007) TIME 8: 45 am - 6:00 pm

~warm up session ~ * massage for each other*

.....

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First Task

~ Get ready our hands ~
* try*

fail ~( *-*) ~ try again ~ fail~ try again~

When we got the instruction from instructor, it sounds easy to complete, therefore my group set within 20 seconds can complete the task, who knows ~ fail and fail~

Sound easy ya…the end …everyone started to blame each other … noise fill up the whole hall!!

Lesson for us learn:
1. When task can’t complete as what we plan, we start to blame each other/partner, blame the object/task, blame instructor (Frustration come). This situation help us know and identify our emotion and environment better.

2. Change : there are three things we can change : method, people and object or task
( when put into real life situation eg. Which are the one easier to change?)
People : hardly to change – everyone is unique
Object : job given hardly to change - unless u quit
Method : the most easier. We can change our method in doing thing and dealing with people.

Change Method starts with change our own mindset.
Sometime we are to comfort with our mindset and refuse to change. Rather change on ppl/task. Does it work?
Mindset is based on what we believe/ perception. So deal with our mindset. Be flexible and open and you will gain your creativity!

At Last we break e record... by changing e way doing it... ^_^

Second Task !

Divide into Three groups!

Let us look at other group how they turnover the mat without FEET TOUCH ON THE GOURND ~

ursh~ Tough ! some more so many ppl on the ground sheet~ !

Mission - Fail Again~ !

After explaination from instructor, we got one brilliant idea from one of colleague...

Solution : Combine!

You got idea? hee...

Result : not only break record of timing. But we archieve success together as whole Team.

*Lesson for us to learn *

We always limit by the resource in our working place ( Surround us) ...

We have to Identify the limitation : Space and weight ...
and look around other resource!

In order to get task complete, we got to get other resource outside- to support/ help in order to achieve the GOAL !

Last we have our lunch at "HAI TIAN LOU"

~~ Tell u..DIM SAM there is super delicious lo~~

& scenery also very nice lo~~

After Lunch...Gosh~ ! Another activity!

Communication

We are formed into few groups again . Each group are giving material to form a shape. The Shape must used up all rod (12pcs) and connector ( 6 pcs)

Discuss among the group: we are given 7 mins to discuss how to form a shape

WITHOUT using hand to communicate

( Is really test how u translate your message verbally)

After 7 mins, everyone will be blind fold.

Only one can open eye and do one task at one time ( Either plug it or remove it ) .one person only can have one action at one time. The rest can not communicate and see what the other doing. once you complete one action you may touch your neighbor to continue the task.

Our group communication not bad. formed a shape as per our idea…( see above) but when wiser blew.. We got to change to another Group…OH NO!

Oh no… shape formed by previous group totally wrong…shall we continue on or remove it… ?
(One person, one action – time limited) we are not given time to discuss, but to continue the object in front of us.

WHAT DECISION WILL YOU MAKE? Continue build the structure or remove it.
At the end…our group loses! We continue what on our hand…

*Lessons for us to learn.*

Communication is important. ( communication will face different barriers e.g different ppl digest info differently, diff language, diff way of comm…) will u still communicate?

When Changes come, how will u react pesonally or as team? (Eg. When ppl hand over their job to you,You see their matters of doing thing is wrong, will u follow and continue on ? Or will u start all over again?or will u runaway from responsibility? )

Will you start to blame to that person that hand over the thing to u in mess?
This really test your attitude and where your stand is!

(FINALLY ..DIAMOND SHAPE OBJECT FORM)

With Diamond Shape structure we had formed.. instructor put it on top of pile
and he want us go/pass through the structure without touching.

If object fall, we got to start over again!

This time round... even tougher !!!

how could that be! everyone got different sizes...some more can't touch the structure or hold it ..

hm...don't think everyone can make it...

When i start to wonder" HOW"... i got shock by their ( my colleagues) spirit!

They now do not look on their limitation..BUT THEY START TO TRY AND DO IT!

wow~! I SALUTE!

...BREAK THROUGH CAME!! To everyone!

Fail many time ..but they "ALL" PASS Finally!

we can pass the obj with few style :
1. top to top ( higher score)

2. top to bottom

3. bottom to bottom

(The above with blind fold - Mark will be additional four time - HIGEST)

~ Challenge ~

See ...

Helping hand! to help other to achieve success.. strike GOAL...

UNITY build up! Spirit lift up! Syngergy spear up!

..START GIVING HELP HAND TO EACH OTHER ..

YEAH !!! LAST WE Graduate with Certificate!

Company Seminar

2007-08-20T13:41:00.001+03:00

Yeah! !First time our company organised Seminar!
Theme: Team Building.

Is my company first time open to all of us...( before that only for manager!)
So tmr, only left guys in the off and all ladies will attend the seminar!! Think they will miss us a lot...haha

At last have a break in work and enjoy the course...
You could be thinking of Why or What so excited?!
..simple... becoz is time to explore, experience and learn!
.. Heard from my Head dept..company have arranged a good meal(lunch) for us (at one of e famous restaurant!) ...

Really surprise when we heard tat!!! so generous !!

haha..two days ago until today ..everybody still discussing about transportation...what to wear...haha..everybody seen so excited!! Think everybody really look forward!

(fyi: venue is @ pan pacific hotel)

Believe - synergy & unity among colleagues will build up thru this seminar... ^_^
have seen some sparkling here and there alr ... hee...

Thank GOD for the above!

HOPE RUN

2007-08-20T13:01:00.000+03:00

Yesterday was my first time joined cumminity running...
What a challennge to me ....

There was 6k and 3.2K..run
Of course i chose "3.2k family fun run" ...as a first time runner!

" 3.2K " although compare to other is like nothing...
but to me is a little breakthrough...
instead i 'm quite enjoy...

Weather was Good! Scenery was beautiful! ... runner were excited!!...

At the end, i managed to complete the whole run (3.2K) !! not bad ya!! hahaa...
Jie Yee "Jia You"....

Think my interest have slowly builded up ya!! heehee...

05.08.2007

2007-08-05T12:58:00.000+03:00

Time flies...
Coming end of this week...just want to lay down my thoughts again..

When I reflect, realizing I have gone thru a "challenging" week...
Think none other word can best describe my week except this word ...CHALLENGING!!! ( i like to use this word, for it sound positive)

Beside with my hectic work... this week i have been thought and reflect a lot...( haha, my shepherd always said Don't over think/ think too much. else it will become worries. true la..Anyway don't worry, I will exercise my self control in my thought life)...

Ha ...when I look back my last month, amazing ya..some "little struggles" i have in me..now no longer holding me from moving forward..Thank GOD for his amazing grace and new mercy..Though i know this little struggle some time still appear , i know i can't avoid.. but with his perfect love... it no longer hunting my thoughts and heart...

This journey is not easy at all to me...require a lot of trust, courage, faith, hope..for a lot of thing is beyond what i understand and what i can accept. Sometime i question GOD, Why? Sometime i am wondering ..should i ... ?or How? Sometime I fall..Sometime i stand up again ..Sometime i found , Sometime i lose..some time ..have tear and pain, sometime have joy and comfort..

Many stages of life... this path full with many sour,sweet, bitter and spicy taste.

Lord, ...

My shepherd today taught me something...

Tell your every single feeling to GOD, tell him your every situation, tell him what you struggle, tell him how angry you are, tell him how hurt you are, tell him everything....everything.. but DONT EXPECT OR ASK FOR SOLUTION...

hm...we are living in fast space environment..everyone is look for instant & immediate answer ...Yes, we are trusting GOD yet we also look forward the answer or solution from the lord. Pray for his deliverance. Waiting and Expect the ans from him.. today? tmr? which year? when?

But don't our GOD know everything about us?..while we still in our mother womb, he already had plan for us.Plan to prosper us & not to harm us. Plan to fullfill his purpose and satisfy our soul...therefore don't he know his son or daughter need? ..for sure he will deliverance.

But what we need is to TELL and not ASK..tell him our everything is telling him we need him.tell him bring us closer to him and knowing he is GOD and knowing him in deeper way so that we wont deceieve by this world! for He himself is the solution! ^_^ ( ha..conclusion is build up a bigger trust in GOD and also changing our motive and focus)

Ok..Time to talk to GOD...hope u have great time chit chat with GOD as well...

GOOD NIGHT!

ministering night

2007-07-24T04:59:00.000+03:00

Tonight I have great time fellowship with God and my bro and sis in christ
It was a ministering night to me.

"Knowing God is my all in my life. He is so "personal" to me !!! Before that although i know and understand who he is, but i hardly,seldom and may be can said didnt identify and personalize him so depth in everypart of my life..!! "

Is him, MY LORD bring me beside him..and see " where is he in my life" ..So amazing!

He is lord of my Life. He is lord of my situations. He is lord of my emotions, He is lord of my every circumstances ...in family, in work, in relationship, in finance...everything that I've gone thru, that I have , is belong to him and with his purpose and all I need to know is I have God in "all my need".

Understand him in many part of my life..i know i no longer want to let my own emotion to lead me..but LORD. i no longer want my situations to decide where should i go, what should i Do, but GOD the one decide ! i no longer want my fear,my past, my insecurity, my uncertainly in this life to lead me but GOD my creator! I am free in all for I have HIM, MY GOD, is in controling the wheel of my life.

The Lord is near!...Surely I know i should not take over his wheel.. for i don't know myself, my future ( only sometime know part and partial) but MY LORD know everthing for he hold my future ... he know my destiny ..

Finally, Is the matter I acknowledge and trust in him. is the matter I have faith in him and know that I have been full redeem by his blood on cross and gain eternal hope.Is the matter I know who he is and in which position i acknowledge him.

Praise to the lord for his faithfulness and his unfailing love to me.

Our GOD is an awesome God. He has HIS highest ways and thoughts than us that surpass our knowledge and understanding, if God can divide the red sea in OT, he reveal many wonders to many nations, surely OUR GOD will and can do the same in my life and your life. For i know my GOD is an unchanging GOD. He is the same yesterday, today and forever.

My sources of strength, My source of Hope,

Is in Christ alone..Amen!

21st Festival of Praise 2007

2007-07-23T10:41:00.001+03:00

I was informed by my collegue, Annie, 21st Festival of Praise 2007 is coming soon.

* 3 Aug to 5Aug - 7.30 p.m. at Singapore Indoor Stadium

*Worship leader Don Moen and Celebrated Christian Delirious will be leading in praise and worship.

Speaker Rev. Dr. Phil Pringle from Christian City Church in Sydney, Australia, will also be ministering the word of God every night *

Yes! Yes! Yes! Finally!

Hee ~~ Hee ~~

Can meet my favourite worship leader~~ Don Moen~

2007-07-23T10:30:00.000+03:00

really inspired by the above pic..

Require a lot faith and courage and trust huh~!!

Daily life

The more we walk by faith in christ

The more we have quietness and confidence in GOD

* GOD is the Ultimate sources of ALL *

Amen?! ^_^

2007-07-16T10:07:00.000+03:00

Recently i read quite no of my bro and sis blogs..( Reading their life testimonies is a great encouragement to me and this always refresh my thoughts, my mood, my heart and my desire again)

Haha~ may be this week till now i 've been searching for something....

May be word of Encouragement? not from anyone but from GOD ..may thru ppl life, thru his words ( bible)..hope that ...some WOG/article/testimonies that can release my inner stress and burden and worries and thoughts...and give me a new insight out :D

Realise my blog now a day put a lot of article than sharing about my own life, feelings and thoughts...may be at that moment, just find that article can best describe of my situation on that moment ..that i can read no of time to encourage myself...

Lord,

Thank you for everything that you put into my life.
Last six months you have blessed me in many ways...when i looked back it seem like watching video clips..struggle after struggles .. lessons after lessons..test after test...comfort after comfort..and way after way..

Now i realise is so important to hide under ur wings. Ur wing that full with strength, grace, mercy and your characters that able constant give me hope, love ,faith ...and still my heart...and help me to move on in my life..( Lord i can't live without u)

LORD, you are the awesome GOD. Your way is higher than my ways and your thought is higher than my thoughts. You words will never short change me and my whole household..and i know it will be accomplished when time to come..this is your promises...

Lord, please turn my worries and burdens into faith and trust in you. You know what is happen to my bro life. The burden i have to him is too heavy and i know is beyond what i can do and bear..but lord help me to put e complete trust in you. As you take complete control of it, i know my yoke is light.

Lord i confess human wisdom and effort can't help at all..and I pray father lord, you open a way. I pray that you personally encounter with him. I pray that you delivered your message of "LOVE" to him in you unique and amazing way. I pray that you send an angel to protect him. I pray that you grant him courage and faith to walk out from his past and condemnation.

I pray that the stronghold he had will tear off and he found you as he found everythings!

Lord, I truly commit him unto your hand. Truly lord u are the only answer of everything and only you ( your truth) can set him free. And lord i ask for your mercy and grace.

Lord i pray for giving me a sense of quietness and confidence in you may all these storm or wind may pass...

In jesus name i pray . Amen.

Jesus was thinking & praying for us

2007-07-04T08:05:00.000+03:00

A voyaging ship was wrecked during a storm at sea and only two of the men on it were ableto swim to a small, desert like island.

The two survivors, not knowing what else to do,agree that they had no other recourse but to pray to God.

However, to find out whose prayer was more powerful,they agreed to divide the territory between themand stay on opposite sides of the island.

The first thing the first man prayed for was food.

The next morning, the first man saw a fruit-bearing tree on his side of the land,and he was able to eat its fruit.The other man's parcel of land remained barren.

After a week, the first man was lonely and he decided to pray for a wife.The next day, another ship was wrecked,and the only survivor was a woman who swam to his side of the land.On the other side of the island,there was nothing.

Soon the first man prayed for a house,clothes, more food.The next day, like magic,all of these were given to him.However,the second man still had nothing.

Finally, the first man prayed for a ship, so that his wife and he could leave the island.In the morning, he found a ship dockedat his side of the island.The first man boarded the ship with his wifeand decided to leave the second man on the island.

He considered the other man unworthyto receive God's blessings,since none of his prayers had been answered.

As the ship was about to leave,the first man heard a voice from Heaven booming,"Why are you leaving your companion on the island?"

"My blessings are mine alone, since I was the one who prayed for them,"the first man answered.

"His prayers were all unanswered, and so he does not deserve anything."

"You are mistaken!"the voice rebuked him.

"He had only one prayer,which I answered.

If not for that, you would not have received any of my blessings."

"Tell me," the first man asked the voice,"what did he pray for that I should owe him anything?"

"He prayed that all your prayers be answered."

For all we know, our blessings are not the fruits of our prayers alone,but those of another praying for us.

When Jesus died on the cross he was thinking of you!

A Blind Girl

2007-05-07T07:30:00.000+03:00

Sometimes you read something and it makes you stop and think…
And then you want to share it with everyone you care about.
Please read this and share it with the people you love…

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boy friend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boy friend.

One day someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boy friend asked her,” now that you can see the world, will you marry me?” The girl was shocked when she saw that her boy friend was blind too, and refused to marry him.

Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying.

” JUST TAKE CARE OF MY EYES PLEASE.”

This is how humans change when their status changes. Only few remember what life was before, and who has always been there in the most painful situations.

THE ANT AND THE CONTACT LENS

2007-04-24T13:08:00.000+03:00

A true story by Josh and Karen Zarandona

Brenda was a young woman who was invited to go rock climbing. Although she was very scared, she went with her group to a tremendous granite cliff. In spite of her fear, she put on the gear, took hold of the rope, and started up the face of that rock. Well, she got to a ledge where she could take a breather. As she was hanging on there, the safety rope snapped against Brenda's eye and knocked out her contact lens.

Well, here she is, on a rock ledge, with hundreds of feet below her and hundreds of feet above her. Of course, she looked and looked and looked, hoping it had landed on the ledge, but it just wasn't there.

Here she was, far from home, her sight now blurry. She was desperate> and began to get upset, so she prayed to the Lord to help her to find it.

When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens, but there was no contact lens to be found. She sat down, despondent, with the rest of the party, waiting for the rest of them to make it up the face of the cliff.

She looked out across range after range of mountains, thinking of that verse that says, "The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth." She thought, "Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is Please help me."

Finally, they walked down the trail to the bottom. At the bottom there was a new party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff. One of them shouted out, "Hey, you guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?"

Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across the face of the rock, carrying it on it's back.

Brenda told me that her father is a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the contact lens, he drew a picture of an ant lugging that contact lens with the words, "Lord, I don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I can't eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I'll carry it for You"

I think it would probably do some of us good to occasionally say,"God, I don't know why you want me to carry this load. I can see no good in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if you want me to carry it, I will."

God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called. Yes, I do love GOD. He is my source of existence and my Savior. He keeps me functioning each and every day. Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him... I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. (Phil. 4:13)

Is IT? :D

2007-04-24T12:56:00.000+03:00

(enjoy reading..kekeke:P)

BF : What do you want to eat??

GF : Anything will do......

BF : Ok, chicken rice then.

GF : But I don't feel like having rice leh....

BF : Ok, mee goreng then.....

GF : Don't want, too oily.....

BF : Fishball noddle soup....

GF : Yeeeee...So plain....

BF : Then what you want???

GF : Anything lor.......

=====================================

Me: What do you don't want to eat? Rice or Noodles?

Wife: Er..don't want rice

Me: Ok, so anything with noodles is fine?

Wife: Yes

Me: Soup or dry?

Wife: Anything

In the end, we still couldn't find out what she really wants.

=======================================

Another scenario when going shopping with girl,

girl: (holding up two clothes) which one is nice?

boy: the blue one looks nicer

girl: is it? I thought the black one is more classy

boy: I agree, take the black one then

girl: But then, the blue one looks quite nice too

boy: yeah

girl: which one is better ?

if boy answer 'black', girl will say he keeps changing his mind and never shows sincererity and care. If boy answer 'blue', girl will say, " told you that the black one looks more class"

But no matter what the boy says, the girl will eventually choose the oneshe has already decided beforehand. A lot of the times,the girl might even put the two clothes back (after extensive trying) and says not interested anymore. really don't know what she wants.

This is quite true but not totally. Not all the time girls are like this.

AGREE GALS OUT THERE WHO ARE READING THIS?!!

kekeke :P

The Road of life

2007-04-24T09:42:00.000+03:00

The Road of life

At first I saw God as my observer, my judge,
keeping track of the things I did wrong,
so as to know whether I merited heaven or hell when I die.
He was out there sort of like a president.
I recognized his picture when I saw it, but I really didn’t know Him.

But later on, when I met Christ,
It seemed as though life were rather like a bike ride,
but it was a tandem bike,
and I noticed that Christ was in the back helping me pedal.

I don’t know when it was that he suggested
that we change places,
but life has not been the same since.
When I had control,
I knew the way.;
It was rather boring,
but predictable...
It was the shortest distance between two points.

But when he took the lead,
He knew delightful long cuts,
up mountains, and through rocky places
at breakneck speeds,
It was all I could do to hang on!
And even though it seemed like madness,
All He said was ’Pedal’.

I worried and was anxious and I asked,
’Where are you taking me?’
He laughed and didn’t answer,
and I started to learn to trust.
I forgot my boring life
and entered into the adventure.
And when I’d say, ’I’m scared,’
He’d lean back and touch my hand.

He took me to people with gifts that I needed,
gifts of healing, acceptance and joy.
They gave me gifts to take on my journey,
my Lord’s and mine.

And we were off again.
He said, ’Give the gifts away;
they’re extra baggage, too much weight.’
So I did, to the people we met,
and I found that in giving I received,
and still our burden was light.

I did not trust Him, at first, To be in control of my life.
I thought He’d wreck it; but he knows bike secrets,
knows how to make it bend to take sharp corners,
knows how to jump to clear high rocks,
knows how to fly to shorten scary passages.

And I am learning to shut up and pedal
in the strangest places,
and I’m beginning to enjoy the view
and the cool breeze on my face
with my delightful constant companion
Jesus Christ.

And when I’m sure I just can’t do anymore,
He just smiles and says....’Pedal.’

WHY???

2007-04-18T09:54:00.000+03:00

Easter day - 2007 ( sunday)

Below Video clip touch me a lot...

WHY

WhyArtist: Nichole Nordeman

Album: This Mystery

Year: 2000

We rode into town the other day

Just me and my Daddy

He said I'd finally reached that age

And I could ride next to him on a horse

That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting

And so we stopped to find out why

And there was that man

That my dad said he loved

But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said "Daddy, why are they screaming?

Why are the faces of some of them beaming?

Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?

I'll bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows

Daddy, please can't you do something?

He looks as though He's gonna cry

you said he was stronger than all of those guys

Daddy, please tell me why

Why does everyone want him to die?"

Later that day the sky grew cloudy

And Daddy said I should go inside

Somehow he knew things would get stormy

Boy was he right

But I could not keep from wondering

If there was something he had to hide

So after he left I had to find out

I was not afraid of getting lost

So I followed the crowds

To a hill where I knew men had been killed

And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?

Why are the faces of some of them beaming?

Why are they casting their lots for My robe?

This crown of thorns hurts Me more than it shows

Father, please can't You do something?

I know that You must hear My cry

I thought I could handle the cross of this size

Father, remind Me why

Why does everyone want Me to die?

When will I understand why?"

"My precious Son, I hear them screaming

I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming

But soon I will clothe You in robes of My own

Jesus, this hurts Me much more than You know

But this dark hour I must do nothing

Though I've heard Your unbearable cry

The power in Your blood destroys all of the lies

Soon You'll see past their unmerciful eyes

Look there below, see the child

Trembling by her father's side

Now I can tell You why

She is why You must die"

Cooking day

2007-04-18T09:44:00.000+03:00

....Our cooking day....

It was a first time , we ( thomas and me) cooked with them (steven P and Edna)

indeed we enjoy the process and enjoy the foods.

Both of them really cute...Don't like to eat rice,..vege..onion..xxx. :D

However we come to know them more..this is where our friendship built again..even stronger..i guess..:D

Thank God for this friendhip..and opportunity.

2007-04-07T07:53:00.000+03:00

Even though the journey's long

And I know the road is hard

Well, the One who's gone before me

He will help me carry on

After all that I've been through

Now I realize the truth

That I must go through the valley

To stand upon the mountain of God

Lam. 3:22-23

2007-03-28T09:30:00.000+02:00

“Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness” (Lam. 3:22-23).

Each new day the Lord gives to us—whether in the Bible lands or at home—is an expression of His faithfulness and provides opportunities to live for Him. —Bill Crowder

Lord, in the hush of early dawn,
When all the world lies sleeping,
I place my life and all I love
Into Thy gracious keeping. —White

The best reason for hope is God’s faithfulness.

What GOD had done in my life?

2007-03-21T18:08:00.000+02:00

Do you know what God had done in my life...?

MONDAY- NIGHT

On Tuesday I met Joshua in msn and we have shared some point of view ..

(Because of these two weeks , i heard and saw many people around me caught into sickness and some even facing life and death ... )

ME: will you fear...when u see the close one gone thru certain stage of life ( like sickness ..death..)?

ME : ..and will you have qn in mind about life and death issue ??

LSW:/hmm/...I think I will be concerned knowing that this stage of life will sooner or later come to pass...

LSW: in regard to life and death, it is a process for which we measure our understanding of life...

LSW: in life, we usually take things for granted, but in death we learn to treasure the things in life...we learn what is really important to us...

ME :true...

LSW:so life and death is a process where we learn more about ourselves, learn to see the value of things in our life...

LSW:and importantly to know how our lives matter to others as well...(showing love, impacting them...the significance of our living)

The above sharing greatly encourage and comfort me a lot...

Thanks bro for your sharing...

Do you know the above word is God used to strengthen my faith in him?...is to prepare me...

( that night , i have chosen praise song for tmr unit meet..."How Good it is"..~How good it is to give thanks unto our lord(x2) for he heal the broken heart~..) ..never know this song can impact me so much ..is a great song to remind me of My GOD.

TUESDAY - MORNING
On Wed morning, 6.27am, i woke up by a call. Call from my sister, Informing me My AH MA had passed away. hearing the voice from another side, I know she had cried before. My react is stoning..yet..seem like in dream. Few seconds I have hung off the phone and started crying badly...

My beloved Ah Ma..

i felt sad ... though i know is a great release to her from suffer of pain. She had been very sick since last year...I know..is God decided to take her home. Bring her back to his side to give her great comfort. But is too sudden...

I just want to cry ...as loud as i can ... to release the grief in my heart...to ask god...why? Why there is life and death ..why my loved one gone...there are already two important women that impact my whole life .. left me..." my mum " and " Ah ma"... miss overwhelmed...

However i know GOD had answered me thru yesterday sharing and he had given me great comfort .. that is my love one personal encounter GOD in life...is the best gift and hope to me ...

Thank you Lord.

~ MORNING, I'm still working ( is really super amaze) .. my mind very calm...all my focus is to complete my urgent work and afternoon took a leave to buy tickets...

God help me in my work ...smooth and complete exact on time..and His peace is with me.

TUESDAY NIGHT
me and my brother took a coach back....we were blessed by a super( VIP seat) coach ( bought at promotion price) that the seat and facility is super good and comfort and we can rest well in the bus.

Thank GOD .

WEDNESDAY-NIGHT
Attending my Ah Ma wake. i saw my relatives there...Thank GOD is christian funeral...Thank GOD that my Ah ma received salvation. It was amazed saw so many bro and sister in christ come and sing hyms...to give thank , to praise God and rememberance of my ah ma... the songs soothing my heart again and give me peace...

My decision

2007-02-26T17:51:00.000+02:00

Finally, i have accepted the challenging post. It had already one month. Although the job is challenging and is high stress ( need a lot of concentration, need a wisdom to priorities the urgent doc, need the strong memory to remember and speed follow up different kinds of procedure, need a strength to read and complete the doc in shortest time...) but i found fullfilment in it. At least my effort gain knowledge and experience. At least my effort train my inner character/attitude even more patient and helping me be a good organizer. :)

I learned something thru "DESICION"
The moment i make decision, i know myself more and every decision help me to see clearer what i want in life... :D

Well ..in life sometime we might made wrong decision as well but i never regret of my decision. It might not as what i expected but at least i take courage to decide and i always believe the process is more important than result. It build my courage and confident. Without all these process i will never gain the knowledge, experience, maturity and able to come to know myself more.

Thank God for always giving me chances to make many decisions in life...and in every decisions i made i know you always there to lead me... :)

Decision make me grow...make us grow... hee hee.. Agree?!

Another decision making???

2007-02-01T07:59:00.000+02:00

Another decision need to make again...

Today my head department come and look for me...
There is another challenging post for me due to one of my colleague resign...
She seek my decision if i want to transfer over...

* Though is same department...but the job scope there is throughly different.
Stress level from 5% might heat up to 80 or 90%.. ; however is one of the position that i can learn more things..and challenge myself..* however another side of me... Planning to study... am i willing to stretch again .. especially now in a very stable stage..?

Finally i requested my head department..give me time to think ...*deep in my hear : i need to talk to God before any decision had made * ..well there's only one day for me to consider...

However, this time althought they only give me one day to consider...but i won't feel worry ...i don't even have impulse to make any decision or run away from making decision...

i know is my inner man ponder me : be "quiet" and trust in the lord... he will provide me the answer..

"Quiet" despite all situation and emotion...and look upon him ( my provider)...

wHeRe ArE U ??

2007-01-31T10:30:00.000+02:00

Covetousness vs. contentment ??

2007-01-30T06:59:00.000+02:00

In my mind, I’m still digesting what Pastor Jeff had preached last week- covetousness vs. contentment.

What he had preached really hit my heart beat….that every single word is like helping me doing the check list in my life…keep on pondering me to check deeper part in my heart…

Realizing indeed is God, my dearest shepherd, speak to me…

What is covetousness? What is contentment?
Is covetousness an issue in my life?
What fill me..?

Our worth is not defined by what we own, but defined by our creator (our relationship with God…)

Thru above statement, I know I am not living in people expectation “ think who I am” ; I know my own value not based on anything on this world…but is my creator.

This statement reminded me, refreshed my mind and renews my heart.

Am I always holding on to the worldly perception I used to have?
Using worldly perception to identify my self worth?
How is my relationship with God?
Did I see the new transformation in my life?
Did I give thank and remember the lord my God of his daily new mercy, grace and love? Did I entrust him what I have? Did I put my hope on him and look forward to his deliverance..? Did I acknowledge him what he had blessed me ? Did I …

Contentment life …is start in the lord.
Start to dwell (abide) in his presence ..

*Philippians 4:11-13 (New International Version)*

(11)I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. (12) I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. (13) I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Amen. I can do all things through christ who stengthen me...

can you find 9 people ??

2007-01-26T11:31:00.000+02:00

LORD...

2007-01-26T08:27:00.000+02:00

These few days, so many thoughts just came into my mind…
I know these this month is not an easy month for me… I have gone through many vulnerable situations… think only you know, my dearest Abba father.

Thank you Lord for settle down my heart. Thank you lord for slower down my pace. Thank you Lord for still my heart in your presence. Thank you Lord for your peace and grace always there to embrace me.

Indeed is another wonderful lesson I learned from you. You love me. This is the fact and truth. And it is real and you are there. Is a great blessing to me that all the time dwelling in your presence.

You have delivered me a new revelation in knowing you and myself.

Lord I want to declare again…lord I want to let you and only you be the stronghold in my life. You will lead me through and show me the way when I look upon you.

You have promised me that never will you leave me nor forsake me. This is the promise you have for me and lord I want to see your glory shine upon me.

Does God Exist?

2007-01-25T11:43:00.000+02:00

Does God Exist?

This is one of the best explanations of why God allows pain and suffering that I have seen. It's an explanation other people will understand.

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed.
As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation.
They talked about so many things and various subjects.

When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said: "I don't believe that God exists.""Why do you say that?" asked the customer.

"Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist.

Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people?
Would there be abandoned children?

If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.

I can't imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things."

The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument. The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop.

Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt!

The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and he said to the barber: "You know what? Barbers do not exist."

"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber.

"I am here, and I am a barber and I just worked on you!"
"No!" the customer exclaimed.

"Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."

"Ah, but barbers DO exist! What happens is, people do not come to me."

"Exactly!" affirmed the customer.
"That's the point! God, too, DOES exist!
What happens, is, people don't go to Him and do not look for Him.

That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

Tolerance vs Love

2007-01-23T08:27:00.000+02:00

Tolerance says, "You must agree with me."
Love responds, "I must do something harder: I will tell you the truth, because I am convinced 'the truth will set you free.'"

Tolerance says, "You must allow me to have my way."
Love responds, "I must do something harder: I will plead with you to follow the right way, because I believe you are worth the risk."

Tolerance seeks to be inoffensive;
Love takes risks.

Tolerance glorifies division;
Love seeks unity.

Tolerance costs nothing;
Love costs everything

Psalm 37:4

2007-01-05T08:04:00.000+02:00

Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart. --Psalm 37:4

Rather than seeing this as a way to get our wish list granted, let's see it for what it really is -- an invitation to seek a love relationship with God above all other things. In finding him, we will find our priorities properly aligned and our hearts tuned to know what is really valuable and what is not. Then we will see that what we have in him is our heart's greatest desire.

MY PRAYER... Awesome and Gracious Father, I confess to you that so often my heart is full of selfish things. But in moments like these, Father, I recognize that you are what I most need and your will is my heart's desire. Please kindle your Spirit in me so that I may see through any selfish, deception that would rob me of having you first in my life. Forgive me when I'm petty, selfish and shallow. May I know you as much as is possible for a mortal to know you, not so that I may be full, but that you may be honored. Through Jesus I pray. Amen.
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Practicing to be in God Presence

2007-01-05T07:53:00.000+02:00

Practicing to be in God Presence

Give God your waking thoughts – Before you face the day, face the father. Before you step out of bed, step into his presence.

Give God your waiting thoughts – Spend time with him in silence. Try being together with God. "Be still, and know I am God" (Psalms 46:10). Awareness of God is a fruit of stillness before God.

Give God your whispering thoughts – By giving God your whispering thoughts, the common become uncommon. Simple phase like" Thanks you, Father".

2007-01-05T07:10:00.000+02:00

Christmas service

2006-12-23T18:25:00.000+02:00

I have attended two services - noon service because of ushers duty and night service is really sit down to relax and enjoy the service ..

It was a great service!!! Amazing drama, powerful sermon, most touches song presentation( Amazing Grace), high praise and worship... really Thank God for this day.

The drama really amazed me... (showing HOW God created the heavens and earth-[God created day and night (n thr was evening and moning)- the first day, .....)]

** This drama really reminded me who God is ? He is the lord of lord, king of king, my creator. He created every living creature. All belong to him and everything he saw is good. ** i am his creation. He created me. **

Actually everything in life is very simple and nature. why are we always like to look at people or thing in very complicated way.

* About sermon, i really touch and inspire. Thank God for his message. He 's telling me how much he treasure me. How precious i m in his eyes. no one can give but only him. He UNDERSTAND me though sometime i don't even understand myself. before the word i say or the way i express, he already know... suddenly just felt like telling myself " hey gaik yee, what you've gone thru, what you're facing, how you feel, ...what your thoughts...everything he know...instead infront of him i don't even need to create another me...but just to be me ..many weakness ( imperfect human ) yet he care, he love..with uncoditional, untiring...

Full with god love and grace...finally i know i have received the attention that i need/ i want...the Ultimate attention from my creator, my king, my friend, my saviour, my beloved shepherd...( 24hours attention always there for me) ... silly me still many time trying to get many attention from others by using my own understanding * now i realised, with this ultimate attention i have, is enough..more then enough..i no need to seek but my faithful god always paying his attn to me ) * so wonderful *

Pastor Jeff share about how GOD padding us just like daddy padding his son at the bed at night. His hand is warm, secure and big enough to watch over us and protect us. The moment i think of this, my heart just felt warm and secure. Whereveri go, Whenever i got into bed, i know my God is padding me and telling me how much his love me. The moment think of his, how thankful i am to have Jesus ...i just want to respond with smile from the heart..
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Throughout the whole sermon, i know God want me walk closer with him, is about relationship. not religion. is about one to one. not one to other. is my relationship with him. yes. he know and i know the distance of this relationship. Lord, thank for always never forsake me even though sometime i run on my own way...

Yes. lord is the day i want to respond. Give me a simple and humble heart to continue trusting you and seeking you. i need a humble heart to acknowledge you and ask you to come in and lead me.. be my ultimate shepherd in my life...

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Song presentation <>

Is the sweetest song i ever heard... song from the heart. This song flow in me .. i never have this experience...song that flow deep in my heart... i know is song that God sing to me...my heart melt.

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Lord, thanks for your love. Lord, Help me to remember your love and love you and embrace me in your love all the time... love you Lord. My forever friend, saviour and shepherd. :)

Ps56 :8 Record my lament; list my tears on your scroll - are they not in your record?

22/12/06 - DONG ZHI

2006-12-22T18:05:00.000+02:00

Today is a reunion dinner *for chinese - called Dong zhi" and i went to my darling house for dinner. wow~ her mum cooked many delicious foods and frankly speaking...i ate a lot... hehe..

Of course, after dinner there is one desert that we couldn't miss...that is " tang yuan"...

Thinking..how long i didn't eat "tang yuan" esp in this special day...may be one year.. before that i stayed with my aunty and she will cook it for me.

whenever i think of this, i really thank God for putting her in my life. She take care of me well and her concern and care really touch me and assure me i am not alone... i got some one i can always run to and share my story to...and we are just click ...then share many things and thought in life...

Quite a long time didn't see her since i have shifted to AMK...Really missed her a lot.. thinking will take this season cum holiday to pay her a visit and tell her " How much i miss her" ... :)

GOD will maKe A WAY

2006-12-20T17:08:00.000+02:00

Listening to Don Meon CD " God will make a way" ... I like his songs in this CD very much.. is not only soothing..but is a songs that represent my heart cry , my expression to lord.... through these songs i found peace, strength ,hope; through these songs i found my heart just easily get connected with God..is a songs that bring me back to him... ( all the time).

Thank you lord for using your songs to refresh and restore me. ^-^. again and again...

*****

XMAS is around the corner. Invitation have been thrown to some of my friends...really pray that this year will be a year that all my love one found eternal peace. ^-^

If JESUS is SANTA CLAUS, what will i ask from him?....salvation and ...more other sub sub wishes.... ^-^ realised human never contended?!! Agree?!!

haha...instead of laid down all my wishes, i pray that God give me more faith and trust in him to see his purpose coming to past; pray that daily i will remember his grace and love to me... .However i know before i ask for anything, he had already laid down all things before me to bless(prosper) me ...he know me well then myself. He hold my future and life.

Jeremiah 29:11" For i know the plans i have for you," declare the lord, " plan to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future"

Jeremiah 29:12 then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and i will listen to you.

Jeremiah 29:13 you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

These are the verses that i can always claim on...

I pray that whoever lost in life will found him. Whoever in him, will continue enjoy the journey and discover his purpose. God is God that always provide the way when we see no way. God is God of mercy that we can found new strength , mercies n hope every day....

Thank GOD that always there for me and have been So faithful to me. Thank you lord..Jesus i love you.

Ipoh -Oct trip

2006-11-01T18:45:00.000+02:00

Thank God for last week, I can get few days leave and go back to Ipoh, paying a visit to my dearest family members.

Before that, I was really look forward and i missed them( my dad and sis) so much. Also partly because of too tired and drain up by everything / the tasks on my hand ...hoping to take a break and refresh myself...

This time around, of course Thomas is following me back to my hometown...

Carrying with many objectives and various kind of feelings...taking coach back to my hometown... i should say it was a fruitful &wonderful trip...and first thing i want to Thank God for his blessing and protection throughout the whole trip. Without him as the center, i think i won't enjoy wherever i go.. :)

This time round, when i visited my dad, he's getting older and have slimmed down a lot...Gave me a shock! But Thank God He is fine. (May God protection and grace and mercy continue be with my family members.)

1st day - we had visited many caves. It was my dad ideas, want to bring Thomas looking around...haha. [IPOH is one of the small city in Perak(M'sia), surrounded by mountains. Therefore, IPOH had a named called " San Cheng" (read in mandarin).]

We had eaten many food, " Dim Sum", "Ba Kut teh" ,"Penang laksa", "Ipoh Hor Fun", " Ya Chai Ji(tauke &chicken)..."...from day eat until night ... ( we ate a lot ...)

~God Blessed us with a good weather . Thank GOD!~***

Beside we visited Ah Ma( my dearest po po) who is sick. She quite old about 87 years old .. i really felt heart pain when i saw her laying on the bed-chair, like unconcious... she tried her very best to breath ...she lied down at the bedchair quietly with her closing eyes...i'm just felt that she is in suffering... there are many things i want to share with her..i want to tell her... but i couldn't...i miss her listening ear, i miss her laughter, i miss her care , i miss the way she look at me ..through her eyes i felt love, i found care... i really miss her...i 'm really worried about her...But i Thank God she know Christ. In whatever situation, i know God is with her. she got salvation! nothing that can compare to eternal life with christ...

This is the biggest comfort and hope for me. I pray that every moment, GOD will be her own comforter, healer, friend, abba father ...that take care of her , speak to her , comfort her, encourage her, give her peace and hope in his supernatural way...

( nothing important than inner and eternal peace that from God) ~

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**** (main obj)

This trip, our obj is to spend more time with my dad and sister ..though time is short, life is short.. but it was a reminder for me to Treasure people around me and do the best i can for life...Don't take everything for granted!

Think one way and the only way i can do for them is by continue keeping them in prayer.. that they may come to know christ. This is the best gift that i can give to repay their love to me. Lord, keep my heart ,my passion and compassion hot & fire for you and your people... as i choose to seek you and your kingdom first and delight in you, you will give me the desire of my heart.

*** *** (sub- obj)

my best friend wedding ... hehe.. the food is nice...and the most impt is...i missed my group of best friends there...i know they miss me too..:) So glad we can meet though time is short, we don't have much time to catch up..think this time meeting each other is one way to maintain our friendship.....may our friendship forever regardless time and distance.

Work situation

2006-10-18T12:36:00.000+02:00

I have just finished my lunch. Now Is about 2:03 pm.

This few weeks I’m always had late lunch and lunch in the office. ( whereby this is what I don’t like, Always stuck in the office) Reason behind – work load getting more and more (lesser people) and all documents are Urgent, need to be done ASAP.

Really feel tired (Esp. my eyes, keep focusing on my computer - long hours, my eye getting dry and pain).This cause my whole body tired and headache.. ( now i understand why the eye is the lamp of body)..is not only effect mind and spirit but body as well....

I have been asking God, what are the things I can learn from my current job, in order to lift up my spirit and motivation in my work. I know learning spirit will keep me moving on. But where is the drive? …

Facing the routine work( paper like moutain; rush (speed like rocket) and different kinds of character people to deal with...i found my heart don't even have space slower and settle down .. think this is the challenge i have to deal with...

Above all the things, i think i shouldn't complain much instead i should learn to be grateful of what i have. I got job means i have living expenses. I got job for me to dicover more of me and my potential, i got job that i might expose myself to learn and see the value in life, i got job that i have chance to relate people and build up friendship, i got job that i can share and testify my GOD....

Lord, i want to be grateful person because of your grace and mercy upon me. Lord, i don't want to keep it as headknowledge..but lord let you be the heartbeat in my life that i able live forth my life that full of your grace and mercy. Lord i know you are watching over me and you are listening to my every single grumble and struggle...Oh lord, now i want my mouth just to declare the goodness of you and say everythings that good..

restore my heart with gratefulness...oh lord...

My Small thought

2006-10-09T12:17:00.000+02:00

Time really flies…

In the month of Sept, there so many things happen around me or to me…

Good new and bad news come together…
Bring to the sense of uncertainty…

Is true enough everything under the sun is uncertainly
Who can stop this uncertainly in life?

Also because the uncertainty we will start to fear of the LORD. Because of the uncertainly, ..we seek for certainly… Who yesterday, today and forever are the same and never change.

Just want to lay down all the uncertainty in my heart ( that on my hands) and look upon the only AWESOME , FAITHFUL GOD, My CREATOR….( who yesterday, today and forever the same)

THANK GOD, I am your child. :)

About Rick Warren, author

2006-10-09T12:12:00.000+02:00

(Share with you this article.)
Inspire me alot.....:)

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You will enjoy the new insights that Rick Warren has, with
his wife now having cancer and him having "wealth" from the book sales.

Interview with Rick
Warren , "Purpose Driven Life " author and pastor of Saddleback Church
in California .

In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said:

People ask me, What is the purpose of life? And I
respond: In a nutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were made
to last forever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven.

One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the
end of my body-- but not the end of me.

I may live 60 to 100 years on earth, but I am going to
spend trillions of years in eternity. This is the warm-up act - the
dress rehearsal.

God wants us to practice on earth what we will do forever
in eternity. We were made by God and for God, and until you figure that
out, life isn't going to make sense.

Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now,
you're just coming out of one, or you're getting ready to go into
another one.

The reason for this is that God is more interested in your
character than your comfort.

God is more interested in making your life holy than He is
in making your life happy.

We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not
the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ-likeness.

This past year has been the greatest year of my life but
also the toughest, with my wife, Kay, getting cancer.

I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go
through a dark time, then you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I
don't believe that anymore.

Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that
it's kind of like two rails on a ra ilroad track, and at all times you
have something good and something bad in your life.

No matter how good things are in your life, there is
always something bad that needs to be worked on.

And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is
always something good you can thank God for.

You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your
problems.

If you focus on your problems, you're going into
self-centeredness, "which is my problem, my issues, my pain."

But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get
your focus off yourself and onto God and others.

We discovered quickly that in spite of the prayers of
hundreds of thousands of people, God was not going to heal Kay or make it
easy for her.

It has been very difficult for her, and yet God has
strengthened her character, given her a ministry of helping other
people, given her a testimony, drawn her closer to Him and to people.

You have to learn to deal with both the good and the bad
of life. Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good is harder.
For instance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15
million copies, it made me instantly very wealthy.

It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to
deal with before. I don't think God gives you money or notoriety for
your own ego or for you to live a life of ease.

So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this
money, notoriety and influence. He gave me two different passages that
helped me decide what to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72.

First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not
change our lifestyle one bit. We made no major purchases.

Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a
salary from the church.

Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call
The Peace Plan to plant churches, equip leaders, assist the poor, care
for the sick, and educate the next generation.

Fourth, I added up all that the church had paid me in the
24 years since I started the church, and I gave it all back. It was
liberating to be able to serve God for free.

We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for
possessions? Popularity?

Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness?
Materialism? Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my
life)?

When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed
and say, God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You
more and love You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a
to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do. That's
why we're called human beings, not human doings.

Happy moments, PRAISE GOD. Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD. Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD.

HOPE Church - 15th Anniversary

2006-09-18T16:34:00.000+03:00

16th of September (Saturday) is my " HOPE CHURCH" 15th Anniversay.
Theme for that day is "HISTORY MAKER "

This big event reminded me again, I am created to be History Maker!

Thank GOD for bringing me and choosing this church for me.
Yes! HE is the one who's Choosing this church for me.

I have been asking GOD for about two years, ...

which church you want me attached to?
How am i sure that this is the right church for me to stay?
What else if is the ....

(That time i was a young believer, just came out from Singapore,..)
though that time i was still on and off joining my friend to this church and at the same time visiting others churches ..however unassurance,doubt,fear and questions...pondering me..many of time.

Finally GOD answered my question through one sister.
Short and sweet but heartfelt answer..I believe is from GOD!

"Do you see yourselves growing in this church?"
"Is this church helping you to grow?"
Then this is the church for you.

Many years down the road,when i looked back, i really saw myself had tremandeous changes in my lives. The life that full with purpose,promises,joy and blessing. Though there are many up and down in life, indeed He is the faithful GOD. HE always there to encourage me, comfort me, guide me, lead me and love me..

He's using this church as a growing place for me.
In this church i came to know more people, i came to understand the important of prayers and Word Of God. I came to understand myself more and purpose in my life. In this church i learned to give cheerfully. In this church i experienced the important of relationship with christ. I learned depend on Holy spirit. i learned to be cheerful giver in all things. i learned to die on my own selfish nature. I learn to ask for breakthrough in my life.

He helped me find my ultimate identity (HIS CHILD) and whom i belong to.
He gave me his love that i may find perfect and complete love and joy.
He blessed me with spiritual family that i know i am not alone.
He gave me many bro and sis to take care of me and for me to take care.
He set me free from Strongholds after stronghold that i able to find freedom and victory in christ.

His Blessing is unlimited. He is real and HE is alive.
He used church to blessed me and we are his church. and I am convicted to say that i found my growth through this church.

Thank God for this church!

A To Z Stress management

2006-09-12T18:15:00.000+03:00

A ccept that stress that is here to stay - from the womb to the tomb. Stress management is not total eradication of stress but effective coping.

B e aware of your current stress level. You are responsible for managing the stresses in your life. Always make time for yourself, at least 30 minutes per day. Take this time to plan, reflect,recuperate, rejuvenate and restore your body and soul.

C oncentrate on controlling your own situation, without controlling everybody else. Control what you can, change what you must, and accept what you cannot change.

D iet - Eat a lots of fresh fruit, veggie, high fibre stuff and drink lots of water to clear your systems. Look after your bodyas it is your only priced possession till you no longer here.

E xercise regulary - to prepare for the battles in life. A healthy body is a more effective one.

F orgive others, don't hold grudges. Be tolerant - not everyone is as capable as you. Unresolved anger and and unforgiveness will eat into your body and soul. Forgiveness may not change others, but it will certainly change you.

G ain perspective on things, how important an issue is. Does something which irks you now still matter a week, a moth or one year from now? If not, why harbour that frustration?

H obbies - to relax the tired mind and rebuild the body. Do not always take things too seriously. Have fun, laugh and let your hair down.

I dentify hot spots, vulnerable situations, and plan to deal with them better. Failure to plan is planning to fail.

J udge your own performance realistically; don't set goals out of your own reach. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.

K eep a positive attitude. Your thoughts will influence your mood and behaviour, and your outlook will influence outcomes and as well as how others may treat you.

L imit alcoholand simulants (eg. coffee) as excessive consumption of these substances may affect your perspective and behaviour.

M anage money well, seek advice and save at least 10 per cent of what you earn. live within your means.

N o is a word you need to learn to use without feeling guilty. you can possibly be solely and totally responsible for the successor or failure of every situation in life.

O utdoor activities by yourself, or with friends and family, can be great way to relax.

P rioritise, and do more of what is important rather than only what's urgent.

Q uit time - to be alone, to appraise, reflect and re-evaluate life's goals. Slow down, instead of running around for everything without aiming for anything.

R elationship : Nuture and enjoy them. Learn to listen more and talk less. Atthe end of life, everyone can only leave behind memories ( good and bad)

S leep well, with a firm matress and a supportive pillow. A good night sleep is a good beginning for the day. Avoid keep late nights.

T reat yourself once a week with a massage, dinner out, the movies : Moderation is the key. Celebrate small successes and achievements.

U nderstand things from the other person's point of view - and you will end up with more friend who can buffer you against the stresses in life.

V erify information from the sources before exploding. this will prevent unnecessary and unintended stress.

W orry less, it really does not get things complete better or quicker, nor add another day to your life. Focus on today - each day has enough trouble of its
own.

X press: learn to express feeling appropriately instead of bottling them inside. Good communication is always a great way to prevent build-up tension and sudden discharge of emotional distress.

Y ield to others - ie learn to give ways. It is not necessary to win all the time ; indeed, it is often very stressful and lonely to always be at the top, as you will become the minority.

Z est for life : Each day is a gift, smile and thankful that you are part of the bigger picture.

~( by Dr ko Soo meng, consultant psychiatrist)
* share with you..my friends *

...Free..hehe

2006-09-08T04:43:00.000+03:00

The above picture true identify my situation right now!!!....HAHA

Nothing to do...is really my first time so free in the office do nothing..but surfing net..forwarding email....

Asking my head anything for me to do...but think she also don't know what esle can pass me to do..HAHA... Thank GOD!First time experience this....ENJOY!!!!....HEHEHE

Last come to blog and show off..:P ...hehehe..

However, still wanna take this (temporary) free time to Thank GOD for being so real and so closed in my life. Blessed me with this job to stable down me in my financial. Giving me a job so i won't be jobless and no living expenses. Giving me a friendship with my colleague that we can share about life and interest... they are really nice and sweet persons...Now every morning, i able to enjoy my breakfast well compared to last job...even my colleague offer me a breakfast yesterday...:)

I am really contented with what i have and blessed..Thank God For giving me this undertstand and experience - " Be contented "..

Cool !!

2006-09-04T13:22:00.000+03:00

This picture is cool man....

Any thoughts come into your mind ...???

;)

Jesus Love me

2006-09-03T16:37:00.000+03:00

I really thank God for today.

He used people, service - sermon, songs and his own presence and love to let me know and assure me HIS LOVE and i can truly experience and felt his love like never before (another level deeper)..and i just overwhelmed & touched by his love..last i can't help but tears ..tear of joy ... tear of peace..

This is the great experience i ever have.
i am so amaze my his Love.
Indeed GOD reveal himself to be my lover, encourager and comforter.

HE know what i have been gone thru and he know what are the things i am still struggling and he know how weak i am and he know everthing depth in my heart....

He know i can't go thru all the storms in my life without him..&
I need him to inject me once again his peace, love, joy, grace, hope and trust in him.

In return, HE let me know :

" My Child, do you know i love you. my love is beyond you can understand( is surpassed your knowledge), beyond all the problem/crisis , beyond everything on earth?"

" Do you know I give you the church and members( bro and sis) to encourage you, comfort you and share the life with you...so you will not feel to be alone"

" I give you mouth that you can praise, worship and pray...so you know where and who to draw strength from? "

Suddenly i realised ...actually God really love me so much . He had given me a lot of things and people in my life to bless me & to encourage me ... (may it be the job, may it be cg, may it church, may be family, may it be relationship,may it be problems..so i i will not in lack) Did i realise? Did i look around and discover his blessing? Did i..????

I started feel ..contented of what i have in life....

and at last GOD assure me :

" Remember, I love you. i know what you have been gone through and even what you are struggling right now. All these i look into my eyes and all these are in my control. But remember My love will drive all the fears and my love will cover you forever. I am faithful even you aren't. never will I leave you nor forsake you. You are my beloved. "

Finally
i find secure and confidence in him...
This is a long journey.... i know. But this is a great journey..i believe!! ..i will learn to enjoy this journey..smelling the flowers he had put along the journey.. for he said in bible" My plan is to prosper you not to harm you. Yes! i believe!..and iwill claim into my life.

Thank you Jesus!:)

MY CHECK LIST ~> 2006

2006-09-02T17:37:00.001+03:00

Time flies ...now is September.

There are still four more months to go ...before jumping to next year 2007 .
what have i archieve in this year 2006?
Looking back to the resolution plan early this year, i'm starting to do checklist in my mind...

Am i gone too far from goal / objective i set?
or some still in progress? haven't started yet? reaching soon?

Searching my brain...mind..heart...
recall back about these 8 months.....

I was so amazing for what GOD had done in my life.

~EMOTION ~

I ask for breakthru in my emotion...ha.. God put me in many position/area that dig out all my emotion. ( that i realised ...wow.. i can't believe i am so emotional and easy get into emotion ..and now i understand myself more.. ( God teach me to be self control in my emotion and attitude..and now i m learning..^_^)

~RELATIONSHIP WITH FAMILY MEMBERS~

I ask for breakthrough in my relationship with my family members, ..ha God put me and my family in circumstance / crisis that i don't even have solution ...wow ..i realised so powerless i am and so much things is beyond my control...everything on earth is so uncertainly...and now i learn to surrender and keep my faith in christ alone. Through the crisis, we ( my family and me)become more closer and more open to each other ( God teach me , regardless things are good or bad, He is the one in control. I need to trust him and don't take over his job. i need to learn " humble" & " confess" before him of my every single feeling,struggle and continue seek him earnestly. In everythings beyond i can do, use " time of worries" to prayer- don't stuck there and waste time..) last i see his deliverace. Indeed i find and learn " surrender" , "humber", "confess" before christ is so important and needed to do everyday in my life. *clear rubbish (sins) daily*

~OTHERS ASPECT~

I ask for breakthough in.....many area.. and still progress.. i know God deliverace is on his way...

Instead i quite agree this statement " we fight 'from' victory not 'for' victory".
Everytime when i am in downcast, struggle, i learn to encourage myself
" I am /already stand in the victory for God is with me and GOD is victory "

GOD's victory is my victory, my victory is God's victory. If God is for me tell me who can against me.

* MY PRAYER *

DEAR ABBA FATHER,

Lord, i give thank for loving me so much beyond i understand.
In many areas, Lord i give thanks for your presence and encouragement.
Lord thank for never leave me alone
Lord i will continue trust in you and trust in you.
All the breakthrough and things in my life, lord i fully commit to you.

Help me not holding any fears about uncertainly in life, about work, about people or anything in the world. But With only reverance fear of the lord. Guide my life that i may obey you and enjoy my life that pleasing, honour and glorify you. In jesus name i give thank and pray. Amen.
^_^

Don't "QUIT"

2006-09-02T17:37:00.000+03:00

(share with yours...^-^)

One day I decided to quit...

I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...
I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said.
"Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied."

When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.I gave them light. I gave them water.The fern quickly grew from the earth.Its brilliant green covered the floor.Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.But I did not quit on the bamboo." He said.

"In the third year, there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.

In the fourth year, again, there was nothing fromthe bamboo seed.
"I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.It had spent the five years growing roots.Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He said to me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots?"

"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.

"The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern.Yet, they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high!"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said,
"Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and bring back this story.Never regret a day in your life.

Good days give you happiness;Bad days give you experiences;Both are essential to life.

Keep going....

Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Failures keep You Humble,
Success keeps You Growing!

Denying Myself = Discipleship Myself

2006-08-20T18:08:00.000+03:00

Yesterday , I thank God for using pastor ben to inspire me something through class.Daily we have to discipleship ourselves.

Discipleship ourselves? Discipleship myself? In my mind i always thought discipleship is to others or other to me ... but never thought discipleship to myself..

But is really true and a very good lesson for me to learn.
Daily are we carrying our cross follow Jesus?
Daily are we denying ourselve (denying our self-center nature, desire, right..) ?
Daily are we lesser ourselves and have more Jesus in our life?

When think it deeper, i know in many area i still relying on my own strength, my own understand and principle to see and believe the value of life, to see circumstances in life.. to react to circumstance...end up, i overwhelmed by cicumstances and own nature desires again.

Did i carry my cross and follow him? In bibble matthew 16:24-26 Jesus had clearly said, " If anyone come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever lose his life for me will find it.What good will it be for a man if he gains the whole world yet forfeit his soul? or what can a man give in exchange for his soul?"

so many time we based on our own feeling, circumstance, principle, life value and experience to see , to trust and to do the things. Are we really trust God and allow God to do miracle daily in our life? Are we obey and allow God and Word of God be the principleand guide line in our life ..to make every single decision, to face daily circumstance and to bless us? and....Did i ?

I believe there are much more things in life that i need to deny... and obey
Of course God understand and know clearly I am human and i am weak. But thru the hard time and good time, i know there is someone that i can run to that will never fail me and leave me alone. and i can uphold all my good and bad feeling and circumstance to him. For he is my creator and everything is in his control and surely he will make a way and deliver me. He is my lord , my saviour and my friends.

My Friend, Jesus, will never reject and fail to wipe my tear, carry by burden, give me peace and joy.Lord, i thank you for many time be so many character in my life and so real be there for me.

Lord, this journey without you ...how am i face this world. and lord, i will ask for greater faith and strengthn in every aspect of my life. lord keep my faith strong in all areas.

Hebrew 11:1 now faith is being sure id what we hope for and certain what we do not see.

Thank you lord for this verse and lord i expect unexpected from you that you will prosper me not harm for you love me. :)

Prayer before work

2006-08-01T16:52:00.000+03:00

I have started this new job already two and a half months. Time run very fast...

How should i describe my current job scope?
Daily produce the documents and do some follow up..to the procedure flow..??that is? .. hehe... believe there still have room for me to dicover and learn something...when time to come..

I should thank God for this job. Compared my current job with my previous job, there is 180 degree different , esp in term of stress level and responsibilities...also the size of organisation.

Well, i believe i can get into this company is not by luck and coincedence. Everything have in my life is God plan and had his purpose behind. I believe! Nothing HE is allow happen without his permission. This is the belief behind that support me to stay on in new job..i believe everything is his blessing and is in HIS good hand :)

Many time when i walk toward to my office, i really pray and ask GOD to be my strength and guide me thru and bless me and help me..Pray that His is my HOPE and my source of the day..So much I need HIS presence and carry his love and joy with me..

Below is the prayer really encourage me a lot .. to pray before step in to office.. :)

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My Heaven Father,

As I enter this this place, I bring your presence with me.
I speak your peace, your grace, your mercy & your prefect order in this office.

I acknowledge your power over all that will be spoken, thought, decided and done within these walls.

Lord, I thank you for the gifts you have blessed me with.
I commit to using them responsibly in your honour.
Give me fresh supply of stregth to do my job.

Annoit my projects, ideas & energy, so that even my smallest accomplishment may bring you glory.

Lord , when I am confused, guide me.
When I am weary, energized me.
When I am burned out, infuse me with the light of the HOLY SPIRIT.

May the work I do and the way I do it bring faith joy and a smile to all that I come in contact with today. And Lord, when i laeave this place, give me traveling mercy, Bless my family & home to be in order as i left it.

Lord, I thank you for everything you've done.

Everything you're doing & everything you're going to do, in the name of jesus i pray, with much love and thanksgiving. Amen.

#Never think that God's delay are God's denials. Hold on ; Hold Fast; Hold out. PATIENCE is GENUIS#

My sunday

2006-07-30T17:09:00.000+03:00

This time around, think will take only 15 mins to blog before shut down my pc...and sleep..ZZZ

.... (~_~)....

Another day gone! Today, from morning till now (night)... what have i done?hm..
"shepherding, sun svc, timothy class, family gathering, dinner ...home.."
Think physically i have really drained up and i know at this moment, i got to stop thinking all unneccessary thoughts but started to count GOD blessing. . :)

Blessing points :-

1.)
Thank God for today..especially sermon, lord you used pastor ben to remind me that many things in life, i need to have preparation. may it be heart preparation, things preparation, future preparation and spiritual preparation... even preperation for tomorrow..

2.)
Also learning about costs of leadership... hm..is not easy ..but reminded me about this verse. " If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. for whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it." matthew 16:24-25

3.)
Thank God for reminding me how much i need his words as the backbone (conviction) in my life.

4.)
Thank GOD for bless me with family gathering (sometime, hard to find time meet up).. that we( me and thomas) have great gathering with my bros.

5.)
Thank GOD i have GOD in my life. Else i really not dare to imagine. (Deut 7:9 know therefore that the Lord your GOD is GOD; He is the faithful GOD, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who Love him and keep his commands.)

My Today Prayer :

Lord, i thank you for today and I really want commit today unto your hand again... may you refresh my body, my heart and my thoughts. In time of tired , lord help me to rest in you, trust in you and have joy in you. restore me that i have a quality and quantity sleep and rest that another day i may find refresh and renew with new strength and hope you have for me. LORD , daily i need you so much that may your protection,deliverance and favor upon me. Father, i need your mercy and grace to carry me through every step in my life. I need you father. And i commit tomorrow and future unto your hand.

Father also bless those all my loved one that they may find strength and hope in you every single moment. May your protection,deliverance and favor upon them. Lord you know them well and what they face what they need in their life daily and individually and i pray that your grace and mercy and peace be with them.
May your presence be with them always.

In jesus name I pray. Amen.

Firework.short but beautiful

2006-07-29T18:59:00.000+03:00

Today..is a long day, but i felt it quite short..( quite contradictive, right?)
Time flies ..without waiting ...

Thank God for today. Though starting have some happening.. mood very bad , however thank god for changing my heart condition and emotion...i end the day with joy. Instead today is a wonderful day i have. I have fellowship with two groups of lovely friends in different timing after MPC. Also today, a blessed day, I able to see firework after dinner at Kallang, what a wonderful and beautiful moment....( though is short..:) ) but really beautiful...

FireWork...short but beautiful..
how about life...?? isn't the same? Short.

But is it beautiful ? ..is depend on individual decision again..:) (is a choice)
Choose to be joyful? and make life colourful even every moment smell the fragrance of God grace and Love or worries ? and make life lost its taste and dull..fill with neg. thoughts and fear..

Once again reminded me to treasure every "TODAY Lord's blessings"...smell and taste his goodness.. :D

Lord, thank you for today. Help me to live with simple and contented heart , with the fullest of your presence and love. In jesus name i pray . amen

Memorize verse :

Deut 7:9 know therefore that the Lord your GOD is GOD; He is the faithful GOD, keeping his covenant of love to a thousand generations of those who Love him and keep his commands.

How to stay young?

2006-07-29T17:42:00.000+03:00

TODAY'S INSPIRATION

HOW TO STAY YOUNG

1. Throw out nonessential numbers.
This includes age, weight, and height.
Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay them.

2. Keep only cheerful friends.
The grouches pull you down.
(Keep this in mind if you are one of those grouches!)

3. Keep learning:
Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever.
Never let the brain get idle.
"An idle mind is the devil's workshop."
And the devil's name is Alzheimer's!

4. Enjoy the simple things

5. Laugh often, long and loud.
Laugh until you gasp for breath.
And if you have a friend who makes you laugh, spend lots and lots of time with him or her!

6. The tears happen:
Endure, grieve, and move on.
The only person who is with us our entire life, is GOD & yourself.
LIVE while you are alive.

7. Surround yourself with what you love:
Whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever.
Your home is your refuge!

8. Cherish your health:
If it is good, preserve it.
If it is unstable, improve it.
If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

9. Don't take guilt trips
Take a trip to the mall, even to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is

10. Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity!

Cg Discussion..WOG

2006-07-26T19:11:00.000+03:00

Today cg discussion at Funan food court...

Do you agree? Why?
- "Bibble will keep you away from Sins and Sins will keep you away from bible"

Some words strike me :
" Faith depend on easy access to the word..."
" The way to conquer world and have victory is how much we personlized the Word of God in our life"
" There can be no effort without desire"

QUESTION :
1.) Your desire (the way to live by GOD words) for God. what is your range (from 1-10) ?
2.) How many verses do you conquer today? Did we memorize it?
3.) How do we increase our apettite in reading WOG(word of GOD)?
4.) What are the obstacles you are facing while increasing our apettite in reading WOG?

Is a great discusion that continue strengthen my desire and faith to prioritize words of GOD in my life.

I see the urgency and need of living Words of GOD in my life ..esp after the sis shared her testimoy during sun service. Her testimony help me realised this is the answer i am looking for. For I 'm used to be insecure, many worries and not a joyful person. I am tired of these emotional struggling. And i ask God, is there any way out? and through testimony and sermon from Pastor Dinah , God is telling me, there is a way. The ONLY way through him, by reading his word. Word of GOD is the only sources i can use to conquer all these emotional struggles. Only WORD of GOD can set me free from all the deceitful things and worldy thoughts. All the while, i didn't lack but only i didn't treasure and used the source, the tool on my hands to conquer it. Am i desired enough and allow WOG to break me free? Did i yearn for breakthru in my life? did i put effort in it and allow God to strenthen me?

GOD help me... and May your word be the lamp on my feet all day longs. In jesus name i pray . Amen.

Good nitez!!ZZZ

2006-07-25T20:01:00.000+03:00

QUITE LATE>>NEED TO SLEEP>>>ZZZ ....

Just luxury spending "little" time blogging some interesting article and website...

Next time will keep more nice article in my blog...andshare with my friends.... :D

(Before sleep...ZZZ)

Dear Father, I pray that Lord, this week help me learn to focus on every "today" you have blessed and given me.. teached me to slow down and enjoying every moment everything you have put into my life, my journey....and not let tomorrow worries to fill up my everyday blessing.

In Jesus name i pray ...Amen.

Personality * TEST *

2006-07-25T12:55:00.000+03:00

Is that true...??? ...:)

Your Blogging Type is Artistic and Passionate

You see your blog as the ultimate personal expression - and work hard to make it great.
One moment you may be working on a new dramatic design for your blog...
And the next, you're passionately writing about your pet causes.
Your blog is very important - and you're careful about who you share it with.

What's Your Blogging Personality?

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.
You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.
Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.
The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Balance Sheet of Life

2006-07-25T12:24:00.000+03:00

This is interesting.....

Your Financial Balance Sheet MUST balance,
what about your Balance Sheet of Life?

When God calls for the "Final Accounts" - how would our Closing Balance looks, what is our "Net Worth" (ie Assets minus Liabilities)? Positive or negative?

Balance Sheet of Life

Our Birth is our Opening Balance !
Our Death is our Closing Balance!
Our Prejudiced Views are our Liabilities
Our Creative Ideas are our Assets
Heart is our Current Asset
Soul is our Fixed Asset
Brain if our Fixed Asset
Thinking is our Current Account
Achievements are our Capital
Character & Morals, our Stock-in-Trade
Friends are our General Reserves
Values & Behaviour are our Goodwill
Patience is our Interest Earned
Love is our Dividend
Children are our Bonus Issues
Education is Brands / Patents
Knowledge is our Investment
Experience is our Premium Account
The Aim is to Tally the Balance Sheet Accurately.
The Goal is to get the Best Presented Accounts Award.

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Some very Good and Very bad things

The most destructive habit......................Worry
The greatest Joy...............................Giving
The greatest loss................Loss of self-respect
The most satisfying work...............Helping others
The ugliest personality trait.............Selfishness
The most endangered species.........Dedicated leaders
Our greatest natural resource...............Our youth
The greatest "shot in the arm"..........Encouragement
The greatest problem to overcome.................Fear
The most effective sleeping pill........Peace of mind
The most crippling failure disease............Excuses
The most powerful force in life..................Love
The most dangerous pariah..................A gossiper
The world's most incredible computer........The brain
The worst thing to be without................... Hope
The deadliest weapon.......................The tongue
The two most power-filled words..............."I Can"
The greatest asset..............................Faith
The most worthless emotion..................Self-pity
The most beautiful attire......................SMILE!
The most prized possession................Integrity
The most powerful channel of communication.....Prayer
The most contagious spirit.................Enthusiasm
The most important thing in life..................GOD

GENESIS CHPT 4

2006-07-24T18:34:00.000+03:00

Today when I was doing quiet time on Genesis chpt 4(about Cain and Abel) & 5 ( from Adam to noah)

I thank GOD for using CAIN AND ABEL teached me. :-

Question prompted me..

Am i like Cain or am i like Abel? ( is like mirror reflecting me )
Did i really give the best to the lord, My GOD?
what are the best i can give? Did i reserve it from giving to God? fear to give it to God?

* Cain also gave what he soiled to the lord.. but he gave for the sake of giving..( he's not pleasing God) but Abel give with "intention"( have heart for God) , he give the best to the lord...(justlike give all your best to your love one..also like God, he give all the best for us for he love us v v much)...(he pleased God)

God see the heart. no one can hide from him. everything i have is from God..if the things are from God why i should fear to give???...

Isn't he know what i need?
GIVE ( give the best ) = TRUST ( how far i trust who god is) = LOVE ( knowing how much he love me)

lord want me give not totally on the tangible things ( tangible things is for me to use as outward express of my obedient and declaration)..what God more concern is my heart... Am i trust him and give all i have with wholehearted and willingly?

My talents, my services, my trust, my thought, my future, my family, my relationship, my worries, my career, my friends, my life and all the resources on my hands ...good or bad, feeling and thinking, stronghold and joy..everything, everyday unto him to please him?...

i want to please God and make him smile.i don't want upset him. i want have heart for him and use my daily life as an act to worship him. i will learn to acknowledge his presence, learn to depend on him in everything i do, and be joyful in this journey.may people see jesus through my life....that is my life for God..( for i know myGod will only prosper me not harm me)

Lord help me...and guide me..thank jesus.

My memorize verse :
Ps 5:3 in the morning, or lord, you hear my voice; in the morning i lay my requests before you and wait in expectation."

How great is my God

2006-07-20T17:42:00.000+03:00

Thanks, father....my dearest father in heaven...
Thanks for your unmeasureable ,unconditional and untiring love ... love that is forever unchangable...

HOW GREAT IS MY GOD!!! HALLELUYAH!
( " how great is our god" this song still keep on prompting in my heart..:D)

FATHER , thanks for reminding me...

" If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. for whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will find it." matthew 16:24-25

Ya, so many things in my life is beyond my control, the more i hold it tightly , when i lose it , i will even get the greatest pains.. i rather uphold all things to the ONE that is in control, the ONE that never shake, HE is my dearest ABBA FATHER. He know what is the best of the best for me that prosper me, that strenghten me ..

Quite true..i still have long long journey in christ.. I must enjoy this journey!! Enojy with my closest, dearest friend, my lover, Jesus presence. He is the rock. if i m in him i know no matter how strong is the storm and wind, he is with me and he love and care for me so much until giving his life for me to have eternal hope and peace in him.

Is so wonderful to follow him and stay in his secure and love... for he is the overcomer of the world..whoelse can against him... my God is the great God. He is soverign, his is powerful, he also merciful and compassionate God.. Tank you Jesus. lord, help to love you more and to have more of you in my life... :)

HOPE IN CHRIST !! JOYFUL ALWAYS!

2006-06-22T20:13:00.000+03:00

Thank God for everything.

" Be joyful always." 1 th 5:16

" Give thanks IN all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." 1 th 5:18

" Rejoice IN the Lord always. I will say it again : Rejoice!" Php4:4

" Be joyful in hope, patient in afflicton , faithful in prayer." Roman 12:12

Thank God for changing my perspective and help me moved to another level of understanding about How to live a joyful life. I must convince, trust and have faith believe this truth that "Jesus is the only way, life and truth" and "My Hope is IN HIM". He is my "Ultimate Hope" that no one can give or replace. His Hope is solid, his Hope is the power for my daily living. Because of HIM( Jesus), MY HOPE, I can face tomorrow and I can live.

Many of times, when I stuck in the situations or problems or when i stuck in my little small-world , I was so easily fall into discouragement, disaapointment, condemnation, self unworthiness, .... and also when in this situation, i know only God can set me FREE when I CHOOSE to continue "PUT MY HOPE IN HIM " and allow him bring me out of "my self pity small world".

HOPE is the Power to drive me on ...
Although many times, everywhere we talked about HOPE and in our head knowledge we understand important of HOPE and we believe we have HOPE..."True"! but many of time, Are we really trust that we have Hope even WHEN the world or ourself fall? Did we still remember Hope on that time? Did we trust and believe that we have Hope? or just allow Disappointment, negative thought continue take place?

For me.. in my life "Hope" always been used to remind and encourage myself and i thought i understand what is HOPE and i can ientify it.. but to my surprise the power of Hope is more than i experienced and i understood..

I realised many of time, when circumstances come, i easily fall into disaapointment, condemnation because i have put my hope in wrong place and on temporary things.. I have put my hope in this carnal world and myself! Truly people say" HUMAN will fail human, But GOD never fail you". I should put my Hope on solid ground that is lord, my saviour and it last eternal.

I will never know How POWER is "HOPE IN CHRIST" Until I truly experience and personalise it. HOPE IN CHRIST is the confidence in christ 's power.Indeed THIS HOPE(from God) really bring me eternal JOY and PEACE. JOYFUL in all kind of circumstance. One of the spiritual book, it does help me to have better understand about JOY. Joy is an inside job. Joy is not based on things happening( may it be good or bad). Joy is different from happiness.Joy is an attitude. Is our attitude how to respond the things happen around.

Ha...when i think and read through above , isn't joy and peace is link with HOPE and LOVE. Because I have GOD that LOVE ME SO MUCH and He is alive (real) and because he is alive, i have HOPE, and in his HOPE, I have courage and faith to face future..

THANK GOD for giving me this solid and eternal HOPE ... it brigthen my days day and night...:)
Thank God for being MY HOPE. Amen.

Move forward!!!

2006-06-01T19:42:00.001+03:00

Tonight district meeting was a wonderful night that I can meet each others ( my dearest bro and sis) in the presence of God.... Also Thank God for tonight ministering.....

I know it was a time to move forward...

Have about half a year I was running away from HIS (GOD) direction & guidance..

I was in fear. Fear of the changes. Facing so many changes last year, this year I was fear to face any changes or uncertainly in life again. So I always gave myself many thousand of excuses..to avoid from knowing the truth ( no eye see, no ear hear )... and hopefully things in life won't change dramactically ..

I know My heart unwilling to face the reality...

Silly me...!!!

Spend this half a year dwelling in this situation.

Don't I know God is MY Provider in all kind of circumstance?! and He is my BEST FRIEND FOREVER??!! Isn't he the one who carrying me through so many darkness path in my life...Isn't he the one who blessed me daily ...

" HOW CAN I NOT TRUST MY DADDY, ABBA FATHER... ", LORD OF THE LORD AND KING OF THE KING...MY CREATOR AND MY SAVIOUR.."

Really thank God for tonight, using pastor Law's prayer and worship to encourage me....

Some key words that striked me a lot were : " have Faith"," be Strong and Courageous..", "Put your hope in God " & " Trust God"

Lord, thanks for your encouragement. Lord, I know whatever in life, nothing that I can stop the changes and make eveything in my control. And i know i can't avoid the changes in life. The changes you put into my life is to help me and bless me to change to be more christ like. Lord, i ask that you continue strengthen my faith and trust in you and help me to be strong and courageous.

Anything things in life or future, though I may not see, may not know and is not in my control..but father lord help me rememBer JUST ONE THING . That is YOUR LOVE TO ME WILL NEVER CHANGE. !!! and with your unchangeable love, i will have courage to face the changes , uncertainly and future . Lord i want to put my hope and trust in you & give thanks for the resources your have entrusted & blessed me...

Lord, with the power of your love & grace, lord I response and rededicate my desire and love to you again. LORD, I pray that you cleance me and restore me again that there will be no bitterness storingwithin me(my heart) anymore..& I will continue surrender my everything to you..

Lord , thank for your faithfulness, love, hope and grace....in my life...

My best friend forever-JESUS CHRIST

2006-05-17T19:06:00.000+03:00

Can't wait to drop down tonight unit meet, how GOD touched me....

Though it is quite late now....but i really admit human esp me very forgetful..i rather spend some time to drop down the encouragement from GOD..it was a blessing from God..^.^

Tonight theme talked about "Friendship"...

During praise and worship, i thank God for his continuous assuring me that He is my friend...BEST FRIEND FOREVER... that no one can replace. He is past, present and forever...never change.

During worship, i started to cried badly... i know the reason WHY..
It is because my relationship with God not as close like last time...i miss his presence, i miss his encouragement..i know is myself .. i allow my hinderance to blind fold my eyes...

But i thank God for that moment i can confess to him and cried to him...
He assured me who he is and he will never forsake me...
He is my ever best friend that no one can replace. :)
He is always there for me to run back to him and rest in him...he is 24/7 available..
To share my joys, wipe my tears, walk with me, carry my burdens...

Thank you lord for being my Best Friend..

Emotional Period~

2006-05-15T17:32:00.000+03:00

Almost a week plus ..my heart still a bit down... down time is really scaring..
Many of time I felt like want to cry... cry bitterly before him...
Felt lost, felt void, ....

I can said and admit that ..now, i am quite emotional..
'But i don't want to let emotion to control me.."!!!!! ... struggle..:(
now is fighting between flesh and spirit...

I know i have taken many things and hold it so strong on my own hands...i was tired..
But a lot of time, i know i need to let go..and only surrender, peace will come..

I know God is waiting .... He want to bless me...he want to give me peace that only from him...that can fill my void and give me HOPE and many others blessing. I know i have ignored him many times and tried to run on my own way, I know my believe/ trust is so surface...

The burdeness, tiredness, stress, worries, fear, negative thoughts, lost, frustration..& others emotionals will slowly come in and take place, if i am still hold my life strongly on my own hands...

Lord, soften my heart please! Help me to let go and trust in you...
without your presence is really scarly... the void...fear..uncertainly..

Lord, help me to see things in another dimension. Dimension that is from your view not from human view.. that my own perceptions & belief will breakdown and replace with new fresh perceptions that is from you...

lord, my hope is in you...and you are my refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble (ps 46:1).. i will look upon you again and you will restore me and i will be new creation again in you.

Lord, heal me, touch me, and help me find rest in you...

Lord, also help me focus my walk with you...help me to have greater desire and determine to listen and read your words. For your words is my strength... Lord, teach me to be more discipline..and enjoy in your presence daily..

Thank you father lord in heaven...my Abba father ..i miss you...
In the name of jesus i pray. Amen.

GOD GRACE

2006-05-05T08:20:00.000+03:00

God's Grace....

Sister(GM) ,thanks for your sharing.
It was another dimension help me to see and experience God's grace...

After listening the sharing from Gm, something prompt within my heart. I know is HOLY SPIRIT. HS help me to retrieve , recall one of the sermon during my visit at my hometown ( Malaysia). Preached by one of the new pastor.

The title is : GRACE

~ Sources of Grace - ONLY from GOD"
~ Treasure GOD Grace by Living everyday in his grace
~ Remember GOD Grace by count his blessing and praise him
~ Give thank to GOD for his grace is always sufficient for us

This reminded me... human need GOD grace daily...every moment.. every single min.." Same to ME too.." but a lot of time.. when i looked back to my life, I was always lived in blaming/ complaining , self pity , bitterness world (own world)... and a lot of time i have forgotten, if is not because of God grace.. Where will i be? i dare not imgaine how would my life become..

Lord ..really pray that you lift up my spirit again...Help me to treasure your grace daily and live happily with your blessing surround me... also i pray that grant me a gratitude and humble heart ~ that always give thanks and honour you.

Lord, thanks for never forsake me...
Thanks for your faithfullness...

Thank you Jesus. in the name of jesus, i uphold my worries unto your hands and I claimed the faith, peace and trust from you. Amen .

Lord, My dream is in you...

2006-05-03T02:22:00.000+03:00

At last , i have left my job...i am jobless now...

Suddenly, so many questions have come into my mind...

" What is next?", "Look out for the job?", " Give myself a break?" or " Back to Malaysia?"If i want to look out for job, "what are the jobs i am looking/searching for?""Where should i go ahead?", "what is my direction?"

Doesn't mean i didn't think through when i tendered my resignation.

But this time round when i went through the above questions again, it's still carried the elements of uncertainly.

How i wish i can see my life outside the box, that is far and with clear and bigger picture.How i wish i can see my life through God's eye sight... find out my purpose again..Just like how God look at us from heaven, he know our future, he know his planning for us.

Lord sometime i found myself very foolish, always take the uncertainly/worries on my own hands and thinking i can solve it by my own..

Lord how foolish i am that i am not trusting you but trust on my own ability and understanding and also the world/ trend thinking...

Lord how foolish i am that put my expectation on people and myself ..But I have forgetten " HUMAN ( including myself) ALWAYS WILL FAILED HUMAN(ME) " but " GOD, YOU WILL NEVER FAILED ME"

How foolish I am ..that not put my everything on your hands...and just " SIMPLY TRUST YOU"

How foolish I am not choosing God( Rock) but human (Glass)..

Lord i repent of my trust in you is so surface and always forgotten about you.So many time i have forgotten about you. Forgetten about how you bless me, love me and treasure me.Father, lord , renew me once again...

All i want is to praise you again and again until the day we meet face to face...

Lord i want to continue rememberance the goodness of you and let my heart always sweet and joy..

Lord is you giving me this dream and desire.

Lord is you open the way for me to step out the first step in my dream.

Lord is you assure me with your blessing

Lord is you carry me through every single path of my life.

Lord is you always there to comfort me and encourage me.

Lord is you always there wipe away all my tears and bring me unspeakable joy

Lord is you always restore my new hope in you.

Lord is you always teach me how to walk, see, listen and experience the life.

Lord my dream is in you...and is only in you ..it will be completed...

Lord, help me and guide me to continue move on to the dream you have installed for me..

.Not let anything holding me, lord let you be the driver in my life...only your presence i long for... I will look upon you..father.. :)

Easter day

2006-04-17T06:45:00.000+03:00

Easter Day

After Easter sunday service, we have our lunch at LE MERIDIEN FOOD COURT.

...See Group photo..

See my both sheps ?? :) know who are they?

After our lunch, we have second round. we went to "Mind cafe"... there are so many board games for us to play.. So fun.... :P

HAHA...<<<<<>>>> ....

Easter EGG ~ HEE HEE

..Our Group..NG2A3..My family member..

Good Friday

2006-04-14T06:58:00.000+03:00

Inn Siew's House ( ECG -NG2A)

Our unit run ECG at inn Siew's house. It was a raining day.

I enjoy the icebreaker game so much ( run by Yanling & Gloria)

I enjoy the fellowship so much ( thanks god , for HIS & bro & sis presence )

I enjoy listening live testimony ( shared by Desmond) ~ indeed it was a great sharing and encouragement to me ( i believe everyone)

I enjoy the show named " The source of LOVE"

I enjoy ~snack~Too~

This show really touched me and reminded me a lot of things...as Desmond shared after the movie, in the movie everyone of them are searching... some are searching for attention- love, some are searching for relationship( love & family),some are searching for acknowledgement .. affirmation & some are searching for life direction ...

In life , there are many things we are searching for to fill up the emptiness of our life...But are we searching the right thing? Are we really know what are we searching for?... in the moment you found it, in the moment it gone... it reminded me the verse in the bible (Ecclesiastes 2:11)," Yet when i surveyed all that my hands had done and whati had toiled to achieve, everything was meaningless,a chasing after the wind; nothing was gained under the sun" .

Lord, thank you for your love, thank you for searching me. thank you for bringing me back to you, to have fullest life with joy , peace , love and your greatest purpose.

Your love have replaced my emptiness, your peace have replaced my fear and uncertainly in life, your purpose have restore my hope and direction...

Also Thank you lord, through this movie ... you have refreshed and recall my desire, my passion to you once again... you have reveal me... how weak i am that i always focus on my own and forget about you. i am not trusting you..and i Forget how powerful you are and who you are. Lord i have limited you once again. i'm sorry...

I want to have this passion like Jesus again..passion to lOVE you and love people... Help me to see and identify what you want me to experience.. help me see the urgency and the need of people...

Lord , renew my love so that i m able to love. Love YOU, Love People and myself.

After ECG, we realised weather turn ..see :)

Second round. Meet my two christian friends at Woodland... It was time to cheer and encourage each other...

...God is good ...

Every changes in life is to mould us and help us growth to be better person for GOD love us , he want us to live a victory life ( ABUNDANCE LIFE) .This victory Life only find in him. Apart from him, i know with human strength i can do nothing.( FOR I AM WEAK) . Lord, in every changes in my life, may you help me look upon you & wait upon you and only you. In every step may your grace and strength carry me through..

Lord, thank for always there for me..

I pray all these in the name of Jesus..Amen!

My S.family members -NG2A3

2006-04-04T12:46:00.000+03:00

(While I was cleaning my mailbox...I saw this photo... )

NG2A3

My S.Family members ( My dearest bro & sis)

**I really LOVE you guys**

** I thank GOD for putting you guys into my life

made my life full with laughter, care & love **

*** I Love You ***

Amen!

Resign??? !!! 01/04/06

2006-04-02T18:08:00.000+03:00

Yesterday 1/4/06 , I have made a one big decision. I have tendered my letter of resignation to my managing director. This decision had taken me a very long period of time to consider ...and finally i made up my mind.

I have been staying at this company " located at Bradell" about 2 years and 10 months ( come to the end of April'06). These 2 year plus, i have learned a lots. i still strongly remember, this job was chosen by God. He openned the way for me and confirmed me this company by clearing my doubts and answering my prayer( that time).

During my stay in this company(2 years plus) , God had taught me and mould me in my attitude, character esp in my work place, i learned to take ownership and be patience towards people and tedious works , coping stress by surrending and focusing to God , managing my works n learning how to prioritise things , build up my confident and secure in God, how to stand firm for God, integrity, ...and experience the power of holy spirit and....( there are so many that i had learned from God, the above just parts of it..)..

Actually from the first to second years ,the word "resign" had prompted into my mind so many time and many time, the moment i want to tender or prepare to tender, there are something that hold me back and telling me to stay on. Also in many situation, I had challenged God many time. " Lord, If this is the place that you want me to continue stay on , Lord you got to do something. Lord, You got to change people( my boss), environment , situation or me ..". And i can say God is great and faithful. He knew when was his perfect timing. instead Many time, i shoud say everytime i threw challenge to God and God had revealed me his purpose for me to stay on.. and i learned a lot thru the situations and People. I should said my company is a training ground for me in complete his every chapter of assignment.

Lord, i thank you for providing me this training ground for me to grow, to experience you and to learn from you .

Lord i know is time to move forward...
Lord i pray that you grant me a greater faith, courage and confident in you.
Help me continue trust in you and surrender unto you..

In Jeremiah 29:11 " For I know the plans I have for you," declare the Lord,"plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plan to giveyou hope and future." Lord, I want to claim on this promise from you again in my life.

Lord, help me to believe in you beyond what i can see...
Lord if you can carry me through in the past, lord i know now and future you will carry me through forever..
Every seasons... Lord thank you for your faithfulness and never forsake me..

As i continue searching my career direction, lord i pray that you help me find a job that you want me to be. the job and place that can glory to you..

Thank you lord.

In jesus name I pray . Amen. :)

Come Holy Spirit - by Caroline Tjen

2006-03-21T17:01:00.000+02:00

Come Holy Spirit by Caroline Tjen
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Come Holy Spirit, fall on me now
I need your anoining come in your power
I love you Holy Spirit
You're captivating my soul
And everyday I grow to love you more

I'm reaching for your heart
You hold my life in your hand
Drawing me closer to you
I feel your power renew

Nothing compares to this place
Where I can see you face to face
I worship you in spirit and in truth

Disappointment

2006-03-16T18:24:00.000+02:00

( night)

Dear Father, my abba father, I miss you….I need you …
Lord, forgive me of what I done. …

I have taken 2 and a half days MC, from Monday noon to Wednesday. It was really suffered. Started with high fever, followed by throat infection, followed by cough. However, I thank god for his healing. I remember during I sick, I sms my dear and cg members to keep me in prayer. But many of time I asked people for keeping me in pray. But did I really spend time pray for myself ? I realized starting from first day, I didn’t really pray. Somehow I believe is holy spirit prompting me that, do I have desire to get heal? If my answer is yes, then even in sickness, I should pray & cry out to god and ask for his grace and mercy. Is my responsible to ask God for healing. Even people were intercede for me, but if I myself didn’t ask, am I serious and want to be healed ?? Somehow, this reminds me about my attitude toward God. Lord, forgive me of my wrong attitude.

After 2and a half day fighting with sickness, I have 70%recovered. Thank god for his healing. I go back to work today. But in the early morning I got a scold. This scold make me angry, disappointed, sad & uncertainly.My boss think why we ( me and my colleagues) always get mc and on leave. But do we really always? Does he/she know that the moment we want to get mc or leave, our heart have struggle long time before apply??? We are not purposely, but we are really tired and We need a break!! And we are really sick!!

I have scolded by lady boss badly. Her words really hurt me a lot and discouraged me. She let me felt that no matter how much I work hard, we still can’t achieve her target. We do whatever we can to stablelize office. But we are limited. We only can do our best. And we need balance in our life as well. Do they understand??

I admitted I have missed out a lot of her demands, instructions and work. But I really can’t focus. There are too many things on hand that need to be done. I have lost the priorities, focus and slowly I have lost my motivation. The change of job scope again and again…where is my direction ? in my career path, where should I go ahead?? I really feel lost…before this incident I have given myself two months to consider stay or left…it seem like suddenly there is a strong motivation drive me to choose “left”…

Lord, I really don’t know how, and how to face tomorrow…
I need your peace, strength be with me. Father, I need you . I need you to guide me through and lead me. Father, in whatever situation I thank you for your grace and father teach me to live a life that honour you.

I pray all these in the name of jesus. Amen.

Open to Jesus, My forever friend

2006-03-09T18:48:00.000+02:00

tonight -9/3- after SUB D meeting - topic : about relationship...

Worship Session :- .. ~Jesus is my friend and father,....what we need is to remember jesus is my friend and how is my openess? Did i really thoroughly open up myself to him ..? in every single thing and feeling in my life? how long that i have hold back from him? i have carried my pride before him? did i really acknowledge how true how weak i am? or i just acknowledge the surface weakness? did i cry bittery and ask for help , share my every struggle with him??... i have hidden so many from him...that stopped me to fully identify him and acknowledge him of who he is and experience him.

He is my GOD, my creator, surely he know everything in my life, in my thought in my heart...nothing can be hide under his eyes... but do i really thoroughly open up and express out myself to him??... in good and the strife ...

Lord, forgive me. Yes. lord, you are my lord and saviour. No one can know me well than you. Every single thought, things will be reveal openly before you. Lord, therefore i can run back to you as who i am for you can identify me. Only you can identify my struggle, my worries, my anxiety,my darkness points, my disappointment. And only you can refresh me, renew me and empower me. My hope will always in you father.

Salvation come!!

2006-03-08T19:00:00.000+02:00

Quite late now, is about 130am.Sitting in front of the computer, just want to drop down my feeling and thinking once again. It was started from yesterday.

Yesterday, was an fruitful and memorable night for me.

Due to some of the reason, my shep unable meet me up for shepherding..thinking nevermind, gave myself a rest at home..however in the afternoon i have received a call from Gm and over the phone, both of us sound very tired and stress up. so we decided knock off on time and met up for dinner. And our dinner is KFC( fried chicken).

Also In the afternoon, my best friend "May" called me. She was in depressed and wanted find someone to share... Finally i have asked her to join us for dinner...

It was a great start. we shared about our life, relationship story..and slowly we have linked our topic to gospel. It was my first time saw Gm evangelised and challenged people and the person she posted challenge was my best friend "Ah May". Though starting, i might have a bit worried for fear to see May response...however I thank god.. May bring out her own point of views/ stands. By her own stand, we now how to come in...

During the whole conversation, i should said, we do our best and everything fully surrender and submit to god. srtike me most was,the challenge " Why not you give Jesus a chance to bring breakthrough in your life" is really challenge statement that stired my passion/ spirit again, whereby the statement behind need so much faith , conviction and trust in god.

Lord, people really matter to you. Help us to see people as how you see. Lord, teach me not to be fear of sharing goodness of you and your love. Because of your love i gain salvation. help me not to fear of human response, LORD, help me not to look at the result but in the process, just
help me to be a faithful worker to plant the seeds. And lord help me really do everything out of love with a great conviction.

Father, i give thank for your salvation and have chosen me. may you continue water "May","My family"," My friend" and " All my loved one" and may the seeds continue grow in their heart in good soil. May your protection upon them and watch over them.

lord, i pray all this in the name of Jesus. Amen.

Thank you Lord.

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I simply live for you

2006-03-04T18:10:00.002+02:00

This is a song that always remind me about my life purpose in God. In my life, there are many up and down... may it be storm, wind, thunder..

Is Him, my jesus, my lord that lift me up , carry me through. Is he who comfort me and no one that can replace him...

The moment i listen and sing of this song, i remember his goodness, his grace, his love that are so fresh and instead is evident in my life all the time. No matter how Life will be..I know i will never be alone and i know he will never forsake me... I know i only need to live for him not for the problems!

Also I remember his hand always be there for me, that wipe away all my tears . In the darkness point of my life, only him can identify and understand of my struggle..only him that carry me through...
that he will cry with me, comfort me and encourage me..

LORD, i want to continue use this song to remember you and dedicate my heart and desire to you...
I will put my hope in you...for you are my ONLY hope. My light and my path.

Lord , i choose. CHOSE to simply live for you and only you.

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I Simply live for you

Say the word and i will sing for you
over ocean deep i will follow
If each star was a song and every breath of wind praise
It will still fail by far to say all my heart contain
I simply live I simply live for you

As the glory of your presence now fill this place
In worship we will meet you face to face
There is nothing in this world to which you can be compared
Glory on glory praise upon praise

You bind the broken hearted and save all my tears
By your word you set captive free

There is nothing in this world that you cannot do
I simply live I simply for you.

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Challenging week

2006-03-03T16:02:00.000+02:00

I should say this whole week was a challenging week for me.
Packed with tight schedule and heavy tasks...

Especially today, i had faced so many interruption in my schedule. I was so disappointed!!!

Supposingly, I have planned to renew my passport and i have asked for 2 hours off from my boss, whereas the moment i reached the Malaysia high commission, they had told me that the operation dept and building have shifted to another place. Besides, their addition info for me was i should go and queue up for number in the early morning of 4am. Man!! 4am le!! I quite shock and disappointed to this news. How am i going to take another 2 hours off from my boss?!!! will they believe me i didn't cheat them for the hours off.. ? Following day, i still need to arrange apply leave for renew passport.. and i still need to wake up early and get the queu no...OH..tired!!..

My heart really felt down.. plus yesterday I had lost my pouch. My favour pouch though is cheap and normal to others...but is the dearest gift from my sis (Tri), also inside contained atm card, $$ ..

However, i should thank God that my important documents, Ic and other cards were not putting together else...i really will cry out..!!!~~~~

I thank god for putting my dear to accompany and encourage me. I also thank god for release the burden from my heart by rememberance of God's grace.

Why should i fear of telling the truth?!! why should i fear of my boss, his reaction? i am not living for them but for God!! and why i allow myself to carry on this unneccessary worries? ...this is not what god want me to live.. and everything in our life there is not in our control..why should i take it so hard?!! can't i trust God? can't i believe that he will make a way for me...??

God remind me once again of "Surrender". It was my yesterday lesson to my shep. Instead this was a good lesson for me now that i will learn to put my trust and surrender to him once again.

Though in the office, the interruption still continuous ..eg..pc hang, window corrupted, lost data.. i thank god for his grace that he gave me perserverence, calm to go through the daily tasks. HE also grant me a helper to lighten my work load.

Father, today what ever happen i really want to acknowledge you and praise you. Lord help me and teach me to surrender all my things unto you. May you restore the joy of salvation and peace within me.

Father forgive me of my little faith and the unrighteneous in your eyes.

Father help me not to look into the circumstances but the purpose behind. In the process of testing and trial, i will learn to look upon you and lord may you presence and power fully reveal.

Lord , i want to continue uphold my days unto your hand. Teach me to count the number of days in the earth that i may use my days wisely & abundantly to glorify your name and blessed your kingdom. Lord i thank you for your grace, love and mercy upon me.

Last, father i pray that my relationship with you will continue grow deeper, stronger and lover..

father, i miss you .... and i love you...

In the name of Jesus i pray. Amen.

New relationship

2006-02-23T08:04:00.000+02:00

This two week, it seem like I have gone thru many things in life...
Especially In term of my life direction...

I have made one big decision.
I have commited into courtship with thomas.
choosing him as my life partner...

I thank god for putting him into my life and i know he is the best gift from God.

During these two week, i learned to put courage, faith and trust in god.
I learned to put the trust and faith to my loved one..
I learned when two come together need to put a lot of effort and heart in it..
I learned not to use the word / action to hurt your loved one...
I learned to be joyful in every situation...
I learned to treasure each other, each day i have..

Lord i thank you for your love and also listen to my prayer..
lord, i thank you for watch over us and guide us through the way..
Lord with this new relatioship, help us to build up strong and beautiful foundation in our path.
Lord, grant us a desire to treasure this relationship.
Lord, grant us a joyful( unspeakable joy) in this relationship
Lord, grant us patience, understanding, gentleness in this relationship..

Lord, please take a way all the negative thoughts/ways , past hurt/experience and unpleasing things within us and restore us with the new fresh thoughts, love & spirit.

Lord, i want you to be our leader and help us in every day walk and anywhere we go...
We need you and lord we uphold everything unto your hand.

We fully commited and lord cheer us up...lift us up...with your love.
May your presence, grace and mercy be with us always.
I pray all these in the name of Jesus. Amen.